nathanael

2009-07-01T19:07:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-27T16:45:00.002+08:00

i really needed that break. and on wed night i told myself that i couldn't take it any longer... i needed to rest on thursday and i really slept a lot. work has been piling up like nobody's business and i had been sleeping less than 5 hours or so for the past 1 week completing work and work, and that excludes preparation for cts.

it felt like a brand new wk when i returned to school today... maybe because it's the first time of the week that i feel so refreshed. thanks to people who asked how i was feeling and chem test was bad. i tot it would be real easy and i din noe that ionic equilibrium would be tested. i wondered if it was the right paper... but any-o-how, i tried my best.

prayer group sessions were real fruitful and the coming weekends spell some sort of relief for me to really rest and sadly, mug. but it'll be over in 2 weeks when i can enjoy my birthday and the one week break.

=)

2009-02-21T20:14:00.002+08:00

this week had been really horrible. literally i was really busy, with 5 hours of sleep almost every day and such. i ought to take care of my health in order not to fall ill. yet, i thank God for the strength and refreshment each new day, and i thank God i can still be alert n pay attention in class.

had been unhappy with some teachers lately. and the frustration n agitation on why things don't seem to go the way i feel it's best still agitates me. but as i was thinking about it, i guess i really cannot do anything else. hmmm.... then only prayer works.

it had been cca admin, work, projects and more upcoming tests. and i doubt the following week (and subsequent weeks) won't be any better. there's a million-gazillion things to do and seriously i start to feel the pressure only now. there's so much, too much, and over-much (if there's such a word) but i guess i can only go through all these by the grace n strength of God.

Amidst of such workload, i hope to be able to be a blessing to others in my sch, cell and wherever... becoz each of us face struggles in our lives, and it's good to support n care for one another =)

2009-02-07T12:37:00.003+08:00

it has been the most hectic and crazy week since the start of the year. and it meant less sleep as well. i have to tell myself to get out of the holiday mood that im still in.... and common tests is in like 4 wks time?

was just thinking about school and life. i realised i haven't been putting in my whole attitude in work even though i do complete tutorials and homework but the whole work attitude towards doing it isn't just right. guess i gotta change coz more work is piling up soon.

had a chance this week to talk to sab as she was waiting for class to start. it wasn't e typical hi n smile, and one thing she told me was to get used to the heavy workload in j2 and i told myself that i really hv to. even my other teachers said this too. tests and tests and tests. even though how sian it can be, i just need to run this race all the way for the year.

yeh running is now getting better for me during mass pe sessions. i really do need to train man. and thank God that mass pe sessions are finally over.

orientation had started this week in school, and it's rather noisy that i can hear the screams during lesson time. and i din noe how i manage to complete a gp compre enduring the noises. haha. cca bazaar was cool with performances and the response for debates was really overwhelming too. too many people signed up i would say.

had a long day ytd with history test which i wrote too slowly and debates shadow adjudication was a learning experience for me.

hope that next wk would be a better wk

2009-01-27T23:25:00.003+08:00

i've realised im quite lazy to update the radi8 blog. haha and im updating mine instead. haha

anyways wasn't really in the mood to celebrate chinese new year this year. wasn't excited, wasn't looking forward to it, it was juz a let-it-come-let-it-go kind of mentality. probably this year's was too early in jan. it wasn't the angpows i was looking forward, in fact it was nothing. i remember every year i would be looking forward to cny but really not this year. but oh wells, 2 days had passed by and im going to just let it pass and there's gonna be no more holidays til my birthday *hints hints* haha...

realised that the past 3 nites had been lo-hei-ing. yes my family and i had lo-heied for three times , and for me four (inclu fri's celebratn). haha many many blessings indeed. it had been talking during cny, playing my cousin's iphone, and eating bak kua, playing cards. today was rather mundane and i spent this cny trying to think of arguments for my history tutorial. writing a history essay on religious fundamentalism is so hard. oh wells, i'll see how well my answers are tmr.

juz need God's strength to guide me through the many tedious ahead. i need God to help me really.

2009-01-23T23:26:00.005+08:00

alot had happened this week and i guess i should state the key events this past wk.

played for the last 5pm svc on sun... kind of historic with water baptism as well. school started where i felt adjusted back to lectures and tutorials. the past week was sian n i was glad it was s0-so though nicole thought i felt sian in sch. but it wasn't la... i guess it was my serious face that shows but in actual fact it wasnt.

mass pe was kinda tiring but i think i have gotten used to it (based on last yr's experience) , and a lot of enduring. and i guess encouraging tim to run n pace him (more so in e first round) allows me to be more pro-active in pe? haha

prayer grp was kinda established on wed afternn... when we gathered n i guess everyone's sharing was great la. and the subsequent sessions were great too... and we'll keep on praying for God to move in this place.

cny celeb in school today was interesting . with exciting performances from dance, and odac and mr fong's cmi dance steps - which was hilarious , coz u can tell he was constantly looking at the others on the dance steps - he wasn't sure la. the lo-hei was kinda messy but i guess we managed to clear it. lots of food contributed though i din bring anything (oops) but thanks to ms mook for getting the class to bring food la... if not we really wouldn't be having any food.

cell was good juz now with sashi's sharing and also the 'why do parents want us the young ppl to not stay out too late' and we had 2 answers - one for guys and one for gals. and the trust fall activity was great. i wasn't scared at all when sashi asked me to fall while the rest of the cell supported me and it was great la. and sam was lying on the floor, hoping she wouldn't be crushed by me if i fell (and i think she also trusted sashi too la). kinda fun la

and there's touch rug tmr. hehe

2009-01-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

the black hole. this advert is kinda cool. was shown this before the message of integrity was preached. haha

2009-01-13T22:36:00.002+08:00

school has been sianz. or rather im sian coz there's nothing interesting in school for me as of now. apart from the many breaks after just one lesson, it has been just sian la. hope that more interesting and exciting things can happen real soon in sch life ... it's gonna be a mundane year i think but in the midst of it, i still hope for some fun in between eh and definitely, i hope to enjoy it :)

God bless!

2009-01-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

went down to listen to the vine band yesterday. kinda cool, love their song from ashes to beauty... really meaningful song.

and back to school today. and though i don't show the expression, i feel kinda sian la... coz work is starting soon, writing starts. and during assembly today, since after making announcements and waiting for assembly to end, i was stoning actually... and bro paul actually asked me why i give such a lost look... haha. it's the back-to-reality kind of feeling that one dreads, the thing is that it's gonna be challenging this year and given i havent revised work for the past 2 mths, it's gonna be a heavy workload apart frm coping with new topics.

and it's good ms mook is our ht though she doesn't teach us any subjects except sd. and thankfully there's still time to complete e unfinished holiday homework - maths. and that kinda sum up my day.

gotta pack my messy table before it becomes more messy. haha

2009-01-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

the past whole week had been going to school everyday (with the exception of thu - and thankfully it was the right day coz i wasn't feeling well) even though lessons haven't start just to prepare for srs debates today. tiring it had been. and its through these training sessions where we talk nonsensical stuff, being amazed at how the netball court at the quadrangle was clean, from black to purely white, and many others... it was really great bonding session. though we din break it through, i really learn a lot and i guess it's really through practice that i be more confident of speaking myself, it's through my team mates ' encouragement that pull me through... and i really appreciate all that even though im e weakest in the team, but its encouragement and support from team mates that matter the most. seriously.

and ytd's open house. a pity i couldn't walk to other booths coz of our training sessions for today's debates.

met many of my friends in sr today... it was like everywhere i go i see my friends... haha. clifford approached me when i first arrived; went to the registration booth where vanessa is, shaun came later n join clifford and led us up, saw huiling and bernice (who later competed with us in the last round and i tot she would accept my poi but she din...haha )
and denis was in the canteen ushering. haha... so many ppl i noe la... but din really had a time to talk to them. reminded me of so much old memories. hahaa..

sch's reopening in 2 days time... back to reality and serious work alr... haha

2009-01-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

super tired now.... haha all the best tmr for competition then :)

2009-01-08T10:03:00.004+08:00

haven't been feeling well the past 2 days. it was just after i got back from band concert that i started to feel feverish and sick. i still managed to pull through ytd's debates training session though... came back home and slept all the way... wanna recover real soon since competition is on sat and school is starting next wk... im still quite lethargic at the moment... need lots of rest.

had been going back to school almost everyday for the past week for training sessions... i feel so inadequate at training sessions and seeing the others more pro than me, im quite determined to do well on sat - it's the stop referring too much to my notes, being confident of the way i speak la... it's been getting better over the training sessions... i thank my friends who have been rather supportive throughout e training sessions.

and thank God school din start on 2 jan... it's a good way to start the new year with holidays, instead of starting sch (sry to those whose sch start on 2 jan but i can't help ranting my feelings here...haha) . touch rugby last sat was good, hadn't play it for a long time... and frisbee was kinda frustrating for me when we started adding the 'monkey' element as well. with sabotages and all sorts... but it was a great time i would say.

sunday met waijia after lunch(who i haven't met for ages)... had a nice chat with her and she's been a role model i looked up to la.. even the dvd i collected from her shows how God has really used her in wonderful ways...

ok gotta rest

2008-12-31T00:03:00.002+08:00

sunday had my cousin's wedding. went for the tea ceremony in the morning coz my little bro had to open the car door.... and kinda funny coz he's quite concerned on what to do with opening the car door... first time doing it. and giving tea to my cousin and cousin in law was quite funny... actually i called them wrongly in chinese... haha. at night had dinner at meritus mandarin... and a bit boring but i guess it was quite fun having jump shots, spastic shots, lame shots taken outside the ballroom at one point of time. i guess those who see us taking such shots think that the groom has a bunch of spastic cousins who have nothing better to do... but seriously it helped killed boredom.

and what a way to kickstart the year with SRs... a competition on the 10th and im not even prepared even though we did kinda prep in sch today. oh wells, i shall pen down some reflections on this year.

well it has past so quickly i can't remember the details of this year. it's rather a challenging year and an uncertain year initially. but thank God for pulling me through and giving me the strength la... not only in academics but also in relating to ppl in my class, teachers, and friends. it dawned upon me this year that im not a person that interacts readily... it takes one to be friendly then could i take the next step... and i guess im learning to be a fun person and socialize more.... i guess cj is kinda fun place and it's not studying and anti-social all the way... and i hope for next year to be even a greater year man...im believing it to be really. even though As may seem tough tedious, but i just really hope for the best la.... and also greater socialising with ppl... i guess im learning to be confident of speaking up alr and meeting others face to face la...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EH!

God bless!
nat

2008-12-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

haven't been updating what has been happening... a lot had happened over the past week...

my ah ma's birthday on sunday was great. went over to my uncle's place for it .. had fun time talking with my cousins.. haha... later played charades where the whole family was involved... just that this time round charades was playing in hokkien... first time and though i noe a bit, it would be hard if im asked to act out the actions... and im also not so sure of the tough words of hokkien... but it was fun la... later after cake-cutting, went to play some songs... and playing on the spot the song - from the first day to the twelve days of christmas was a challenge... i had to transpose down since the key was high... and playing it at the right speed... it was too long... we stopped singing on the ninth day.

ytd's nite went to my aunt's house for christmas dinner... lots of good food - turkey, steak, ham, wah... ate til i was kinda full.... my cousin got gta4 but apparently it hanged on his com, and his com kinda died.... watched xiao niang re later... and ya kinda relaxing and great too.... my aunt gave presents and also fruitcake, my favourite haha

went to church for e musical today, ushering upstairs is kinda slack actually. and i would say the musical went well, and the 3 man props team ( actually it's 2 guys n 1 gal) did well considering the limited manpower...
bo chun and i were commenting on how many times they must change the scene..... exchanged gifts and later we left eh...

last minute plan of having lunch at my uncle's place again( juz went there for my grandma's bdae on sun) and had some kind of potluck.... my 2nd christmas meal.... the usual christmas stuff... watched some christmas movie before heading home to rest...

went to auntie nancy's house for some christmas party again...my 3rd christmas meal in 2 days... kinda cool. initially kinda bored but played twister ...where u had to place your differrent body parts on different spots... haha... was laughing my way out when they were teasing me posing at different pose... maybe shall play it for youth camp eh...

and some pictionary (i can't rmb e name) using dough instead....where the rules are rather ambiguous i would say.... funny la... at how each team guess e word.... haha... and see how small the dough the loser team gets after many rounds since the winning team of each round is suppose to take away some parts of the dough... haha

have a blessed wk ahead eh!

2008-12-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

WISHING ALL A BLESSED CHRISTMAS! =)

2008-12-20T17:10:00.003+08:00

lazy to blog what happened the past week.

my favourite pasttime had been sleeping a lot. wake up then go back to sleep, wake up, use the com, sleep... srs are coming up real soon before sch reopens on 12jan. haven't debated for a long while, and im not quite confident.

tues:

had some debates mtg rgd srs and later went to national library with heidi to get e readings for history... tedious doing the history assignment, as well as preparatn for debates. saw eugene there too and it was a crazy 3 hours reading before lunching.

wed:

maf party at night was great. brought chenghui to sashi's place and kinda cool to see many new faces. i guess the dvd shown impacted them alot.

fri:

went out with some prayer grp members to discuss about next yr at tiong before heading back home and then to church for free food. youth svc was kinda different coz there's buffet after e worship, fellowshipping time.

today:

huimin n derek's wedding was cool... many people there and ya, it was packed. slacked after that....

and i realise im slacking like never before.... and getting unfit ( i need to exercise to prepare for naphfa next yr) . and haven't done much homework yet .... when christmas approaches, school reopens faster than i ever thought.

2008-12-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

church camp the past 4 days have been great! it kinda reinforced things that i've learnt previously and yup to just cling on there... to believe in things that are beyond the expected... to live a life that's just that... haha. and it was great n refreshing la... now it's the application part that i will learn more to trust God and grow too hehe

being in malacca was good. the free time part - having many ppl playing cards on the first night... quite a fun way to start. venture to some nyonya restaurant on day 2 was good...boarded the taxi at the road divider... dangerous boi... and went to makhota to shop (actually there's nothing much la... regretted not following kenneth to the chinatown where there were many historical stuff there and the scene for the chinese show the little nyonya) .... took a cab back... went to makan at the nearby hawker centre where i ate oyster (so small) and drank sugarcane that's of brown in colour but there's other good food like ji cheong fan which i din try ... went to yongsheng's rm to play cards haha... day 3 walked all the way to the river area... quite long and dangerous jaywalking haha... did some sightseeing haha... at the river side as well as jump shots haha.... went back and prepare for e last svc. had free pizza for supper later

the 4 days 3 nites past by real swiftly and i gotta start work soon... new year approaching in half a mth time! zzz.

2008-12-06T22:04:00.002+08:00

bread distribution today was great! arrived at church and started to do the sticker labelling on the many many 1480 sunshine breads that we are gonna give out for free to the community.

was dispatched to a different group from my dad but it went well still... distributed with pradeep first to the households before he left for some classes.. and it's kinda like the joy giving out the bread to people, blessing them. and later there were so many leftover that we went over to other blocks to distribute free bread and after that there were still many leftovers... it became a problem... and i started talking some nonsensetical stuff about how we should desperately distributing the bread... putting it on the car, giving it to taxi drivers and all sorts... gwen reminded me of giving it to the right people - those who need the bread hehe... and it was fun overall i suppose. it wasn't that tiring afterall. haha

2008-12-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

mawai trip

it was good i would say despite all the kampongness, the hiking, the dirty toilets , the mud, the swamp, the branch that pierced through my ear, the fall down the hill... it really makes u learn to get tough since i learn to grow out of my comfort zone... and met great friends too ... the stars can be seen clearly and fireflies were nice... thank God for safety too

lately had been thinking a lot and reflecting about the past year eh... about friends, about life, and all sorts... it's somewhat challenging to me this year in terms of socializing, growing out of myself and learning to speak out... well hope i get my resolution for next yr settled soon... and i guess i'll be able to learn to grow more, to be confident of who i am as a person

and off to malacca next wk again... im tired haha

2008-11-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

my left hand is ill man... i guess it's because of the contact of cement with my bare hands during the cip in batam that cause the peeling of the skin and it has been peeling ever since . hopefully it shall be okay tomorrow...

anyways went to sitex at expo to look for a new camera (which i had been looking for some time since my current camera isn't really working well) and what a great deal it was. it was so crowded, and my youngest bro was pestering us to get home quickly... there was this particular location where it was so difficult to move, everyone was squeezing and there was this point in time, i collided with this teenage boy and deliberately pushed him to get my way through. my bro was behind me and he could see the other guy being pissed. oh wells he must be damn pissed... thankfully he din scold me right in front of me. oh wells i din push ppl right after this episode.

and tmr going to hv lunch with my aunt who recently got baptized n cousins... and it's good to meet them after a long while. =)

and i will be away again ... this time round in some jungle / forest in malaysia from monday.

2008-11-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

today was great. afternoon went to do some distribution of leaflets to the community with some youths. feel very pro-community-involved after the batam trip. haha ... basically it was to inform that there will be a free bread distribution next sat that our church is doing... its quite interesting and good to view the residents' responds, even though there were many who refuse to open the door, who were not receptive and i heard that some even slam e door and not so receptive... but oh wells, i learn that we still got smile and do our job cheerfully no matter what... such things are bound to happen. had some problem speaking hokkien and thankfully yongern was there to help me... and you can really see their lives, things that i don't see in my neighbourhood (maybe i don't go door to door in my estate). hopefully the bread distribution next sat will be gd.

went back to practice for youth worship. and during svc, you can feel e tangible presence of God... wow... i mean it was good. cell was good , and ate my dinner after that.... and yep off to mawai in 2 days time. =)

2008-11-27T17:25:00.002+08:00

batam trip

the orphanage cum sch
the kids there are really poor, the plasterings in the classroom is falling apart, everything there is inadequate, and i really sympathize with them. the classroom everything is dirty, no lights, whiteboard falling apart... so over the two days, we painted and drew some cartoon drawings on the walls. tiring but it was fun doing it since its the first time for most of us. and i remember using my bare hands to cement the walls outside e classroom as well as painting the drawings. haha... and piggybacking the children was good... there was this one guy which kept saying 'yandong' and initially i din understand... it only took me to bend down and letting him cling onto me and i guess it was real fun too. there was another small kid who loves to parrot after what my frien said.

and all these kids really lack the love of a father/mother, they need someone to show them such love by talking to them (even though there's a language barrier) , by carrying them and saying hi to them... i guess it really makes their day

and i guess i learnt alot from this trip as well.... =)

2008-11-21T23:55:00.001+08:00

cell outing was great! arrived at carl's jr the earliest.. and then waited for a few others before we started eating and talking... kenneth took some pics.

went to arcade for a while where my driving skills suck. haha. then went for bowling...the machine got jam and the bowling balls din return back.. it needed a staff member to fix it, and soon all the balls keep rolling out til it 'overflowed'. haha... 11 of us yet there were more balls haha...

and starting off the ball was horrible. the whole cell was laughing at my weird style of releasing the ball. i guess i wasn't calm enough yet. 2 points for the first round. and thankfully i improved, having 2 spares (no strikes though). and i kinda was one of the top few with a low 69 pts. haha...i guess bowling is not a sport that my cell can ace in...it was really horrible.

but nonetheless we enjoyed ourselves, laughed at ourselves and it was cool! =)

2008-11-21T12:46:00.003+08:00

went together with my parents to see my bro's psle results yesterday. haha he did good n i guess he can enter victoria.

went for asia conference later in the nite and the queue is so long we had to go to the overflowing rm - hall 10. met ps jess too. the worship was long and cool... and when the countries were represented, each person would come out with their ethnic costumes... and for singapore, its the sia girl sarong kebaya and for the man, its e sia pilot attire...lols. the message only started at 10 and i felt refreshed after the service.

tonite going to astons with my cell and bowling maybe.... and ya to batam for cip work for the next 4 days

=)

2008-11-20T14:50:00.002+08:00

it has been long since i last post.

intended or rather tried to complete my holiday homework but it seems its too difficult to do (or maybe im not in the mood now to think properly...i just really wanna slack now) maybe after church camp?

well yesterday was great. had breakfast with elden, who's leaving on sat, and well i guess this the best time to catch up. chatted alot and took some photos in vivo n esplanade. haha.... all these really killed time man. then later joined his cell for some lunch at some vietnamese restaurant....and initially felt awkward n extra coz i wasn't in e cell... the lunch was good though. chatted with josiah they all about some political stuff... haha intersting chat.

had to leave to return home coz was going to visit my sec sch band at night. had dinner with terence at nearby lor liew lian coz the catered food suck. returned back and chatted with my juniors who are e leaders now... juz sort of encouraged them eh. and yup too early to tell the standard of the band as of now coz its november onli... the syf is onli april.. the overture no2 set piece is okay compared to safari. and im glad i could still play the saxophone after not touching it for a long while. but i guess i really need to keep in touch with music, in terms of score reading and all that, i really nid to retrain my music skills again...so that it wouldn't go to waste . and first, i will start practising my piano again.

haha..

2008-11-16T20:33:00.002+08:00

the previous week was slackish and i guess this week's gonna be also slackish. tried doing some holiday work but to no avail. i don't understand the chiminology of the united nations book im reading. its so chim - how can i fill in my worksheet.

last thu aft music practice went to makan. chatted a while and it was great and fun time chatting. haha...

went to sch on fri morn for some batam cip thingy. carried back some big stufz back in those A4 paper box which im supposed to bring to batam felt like someone who was just retrenched (given the current economic crisis). it was kinda weird - and half the box contain paper. so a4 printing paper would be in my luggage- imagine bringing that. im not complaining but finding it weird to stuff paper in my luggage. its just weird to me.

and the school librarian was joking w me when i went to zap some pages for my history hw. she was saying got 5 books - u can take all the books and see. i just say one book can already, then she say borrow all la.... i say i onli borrow the compulsory reading one , the additional readings i don't think i'll be touching them. then she like sae how come u like that, borrow all la...
haha... well i dont think i will be in the right mood... maybe after i get back frm church camp then i'll start proper work?

and fri worship went well. then cell was about sharing testimonies. well i was thinking that must go through in the guidelines... by 30 sec must finish saying this, 45 sec must say this. and i guess my grp din criticize each other. i onli expounded my testimony after hearing what clarisa n ruth said. and it was good hearing testimonies... i just read one of my friends' blog where she shared her testimony and it was good.

i have been sleeping too much these few days.... i just slept over 2 hours just now after reading the boring UN notes. and friendster has reduced the number of friends to 46. and i noe of some ppl's friends increased... and here's a report on what happened:

Please be advised that Friendster suffered a great damage on their site as a computer named h4xornytmare had infiltrated their database. Please, do not login your accounts or add friends for the time being for the team is currently recovering the losses that were inflicted.

and thankfully there's still facebook. i just removed my friendster photos for security reasons just in case. haha.

cyas!

2008-11-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

just finished watching facing the giants movie with my bro ...wanted to watch it after knowing that some ppl have watched it and said it was good. and no doubt, the story is good.

and the story is cool.

... and jon kept thinking that it was a real story (but it wasn't really)... but come to think of it, whether it's real or not the storyline is an inspiration and it could really happen in real life.... it just reminds me of the faith that nothing is impossible without God... the behind-the-scenes clips were also interesting on how the movie was put together as well as personal testimonies of some members of the crew.

and this movie reminded me abt the svc a few days back with nick vujicic .... that even in storms, in troubles , in whatever situation that is so bad, God is still there and yeh, nothing is impossible without Him...

okay got a long day tmr.

2008-11-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

received my overall results slip today. after moderation, it turned out to be Bs n C. And i know that i couldn't have done it all alone by myself, it has been God's goodness and blessing upon me this year... i havent done so well in my studies til like now. so im once again amaze with the good results, especially for history. well i hv to continuously get in touch w the books this holidays even though it would be hard to... but i'll try.

and carecell was great (and fun) . the "homework" that we did and shared turned out great. and we learn from one another and i think its good as we progress over the next few weeks. had some time outside the youth room where we supposedly chased out , chilling out and talking stuffz under the ceiling even though it was hot. seeing samantha trying to connect the glue gun to the powerplug and playing w stuff is hilarious and lucas dancing and seeing even more entertaining. haha ..

2008-11-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

the past two nites had been great attending svcs with nick vujicic, a limbless guy but yet he still lives life so positively because of God's touch upon his life.

and it just amazes me, with the short video clip shown about him; the testimonies he share, the great faith and boldness in sharing God's word. i guess everyone there had been greatly been blessed by his testimony. that he allowed God to use him to share the gospel around e world despite his physical disability. God's work in him simply amazes me. and throughout the whole services, im glad many came (even some of my friends who in turn brought other friends) and many gave their lives or recommit to God. im just simply amazed at God's hand at work. just can't express it in words. and the tangible presence of God was so strong over the past two nites that i can feel it rite now ... woah.

and i guess my hols are slackish and that's cool. thank God :)

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

2008-11-04T17:34:00.002+08:00

pw is over today. finally there's space to breathe now with only 2 months leading to the end of the year.

op went okish and thankfully all of us were more or less fluent and the q&a part was ok for me it was a question i hope i answered well. compared to ytd's practice, today's final product is much better. i hope we get at least a B grade. and the other groups were also okay, with 4 groups in total , i noe at least one person frm each group.

well going to my cousin's church later for some testimony sharing by nick vujicic ... and i guess it's gonna be great. anyone wanna join? there's another session tmr nite... hmm

and the holidays are coming or rather already started for me even though results in the form of a slip would be collected on fri.

and there's so much going on during e hols as well....
going to batam from 22-25 nov ; and have a 5 day break before going for some mawai camp and return on the 4th ; resting for few days before going to malacca for church camp from the 9th to 12 dec. woah i guess it's very hectic going overseas three times in three weeks.

and there's a lot of things that i wanna do...

2008-11-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

went out and chill with jonathan today. cool day walking around vivo and talking. i guess it was a great time talking . he was sharing with me the times when they were young at church .... some funny experiences that i never knew before. haha

anyway went to have dinner at superdog and the food was great. not oily even the taste is fabulous...

=)

2008-11-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

went to school after watching some part of e korean movie - a moment to remember. then send some mawai form and met a few of my friends. chatted a while and were talking about ytd's coincindental meetup with daphne in e clinic. well both of us went to do e medical checkup n both of us were surprised to see each other... realised that the doc who is my dad's friend is her family doctor too.

anyway try to help them make a dragonfly (not real one) but it was in vain. had problems doing but at least i manage to do e last part. left and wanted to go home but met ivan along e way out of sch and decided to go to far east gelare to eat. had a nice chat with him =)

anyways return home and ate my lunch. finished watching the movie which was touching and sad. then slept woke up n got ready for youth.

worship was great. i guess the worship set was good and it was a great time man. cell was good where God is dealing with my heart at e moment. i hope to overcome that.

went for supper and chatted. it just surprises me and shocks me that blog flamming (not so sure if i spelt correctly) still exist and it isn't e first time.

anyways going out tmr n slack. pw op in 4 days and hopefully im prepared for it with one last run thru on mon :)

2008-10-31T08:55:00.004+08:00

chinese As was tough... felt like giving up when i did the last compre but thank God i manage to pull through. (wasted my wed studying too much chinese) op dry run was good thank God... the video presentation was good.. well hopefully tues goes well and favour from God too.

anyways is kinda holidays starting already... and it's good considering i won't hv such enjoyment next yr ..

oh wells . brooklyn tabernacle choir songs are cool man. its very different from the typical hillsong songs (in terms of music and lyrics) ... and it's ministering to the heart.. maybe i hear too much of hillsong but brooklyn is good... i think it also caters to youths too...

2008-10-26T23:53:00.004+08:00

woke up today and for the first time in weeks , went for 1030 svc todae (ok nothing spectacular here though... it just meant that i woke up later)

then went out lunch with joshua julia they all and chatted long about things under the sun (since we haven't chatted for a long time) ... came back home and went back to church to play for 5pm svc. the sanctuary door wasn't open and was feeling hot then. svc was great by ps jess.

later went to amy's place for bbq. played black jack where jonathan (wimpy) was blur and confused between playing cards and chips. food was gooooddd and it wasn't that tiring considering i din bbq much, only juz one sausage. so well thanks to the many who bbqed.

went up later to watch the match between liverpool and chelsea. and you can see the way sashi reacts at every passing of the ball - getting agitated , punching his fist into the air, watching intensely, wriggling his feet and some more ( u can ask those who were there ) oh...
oops i dunno whether i should be mentioning this man but it was quite funny la... should video down next time. haha anw liverpool won 1-0 :)

ok pw mtg tmr. spoil my holiday.

2008-10-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

this week has come to an end. final official school day today. one year rather has pass by very quickly. ever since sec 3, i realise that each yr is passing by faster and faster even though the number of days remain e same in a year...

anyways, on wed went to tekong for some learning journey. quite okies i would sae the facilities, food etc. well one more yr and i would be there. wow i guess next yr would be even faster than this year... so the pace of each year goes faster and faster and faster.... and i hope it do slows down at one point in my life.

op presentation dry run was okies for ytd but lousy today. i guess i was too tired and gave a 9-min speech, doubling the max time of 5 mins. wow needa work on cutting down e parts.

aft op today went to eat then chill out at orchard (that explains my tiredness later in the night for youth and my 'queer' convo talks during cell ) it was cool relaxing ... oh wells, i rushed aft that back home and ate again.

well chinese a lvls and pw up and aft 4 nov i'll shall be free and free and free. .... juz hang in there for a while more... =)

2008-10-21T19:21:00.002+08:00

i shall make the font of this post larger ... realised that it's kinda hard to see

received back my results back today. once again i can't helped but just thank God for helping me and blessing me with good grades. i mean the grades amazes me la... still cannot believe that i manage to do well (especially for history) ... and some essays in econs, gp compre which i din expect to do well were above expectations... i was like what the.... and can be said one of my best grades i've achieved since sec 2? and well nid to jiayou for next year j2.... a levels in one year time... or u can say one week time (for chinese, pw) haha...

anw for those who din do well juz continue to move ahead n work hard... =)

tmr's op dry run and my group is imba... we are doing the first rehearsal tmr onli while other groups have at least done once on their own. hopefully it goes well tmr.... and going tekong tmr as well.

cheers!

2008-10-17T23:51:00.003+08:00

well it has been a dread to go to school coz it's sian this week. well go attend lessons go through promos, if not carry on lessons... and studies is not really done yet. still got chinese a lvl and op... sianz... like end (ya promos did end) but actually not yet end (still got some more exams eh)...like some chim paradox here and randomness

anyway haven't been feeling well this past few days with sore throat and tiredness. am better now but still having sore throat... i guess some others are also having sore throat... coz of pw i haven't been able to sleep well ... except for last nite which i had a good sleep. like very she bu de to go to sch coz there's nth much to do ... and results will be out next tues.... juz not saying anything abt it and committing it to God. let's see til then coz i've heard of rather really unhappy news from friends of other jcs.

anyway weekend ain't not happy. got op ppt slides to edit do, and chinese to study for mock exam on mon.

2008-10-12T20:30:00.001+08:00

vice president debates spoof

2008-10-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

presidential debates spoof

2008-10-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

today was good i would sae. went to jonathan's friend house (not my bro eh... but he's jon tan) learn some photoshop thingy. and to think we are such noobs (actually not really la) we manage to play around with the tools within 1 hour? and later was just slacking , and talking about life in jc .

came back home and felt emo. dunno why then went to take a nap. after the nap, the emo-ness disappeared. i dunno why also. haha... weird but thankfully wasn't that emo.

went for radi8 where worship was great, and a thought-provoking challenge hit my head. it's sort of a greater emphasis n reminder on what i've been thinking for the past few days. it just encourages me to really move on to that direction (ambiguous here for the sake of personal reason)

had great supper.

and tmr no life again. pack my horrendous atricious filthy dirty table that i planned to clear on wed but didn't. plan to clear ytd but failed. wanted to start to clear a bit but didn't . hopefully tmr eh. but still got pw i&r to do.
see how first .haha

cheers!

2008-10-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

went for worship team auditions today. even though im in the worship team,im doing vocals this time.. and felt a little nervous as the time approached hours... thx to irene and samantha 4 their encouragement. haha

reach there early and waited around. and ps wil began to tok to me, reminding me abt the commitment i need to take- i guess it served as a reminder eh... especially with As next yr (where there's no time) and that's why i like it now when im so free n been slacking for the past 2 days... anyway back to the point, i started off a little nervourish (if there's such a word) and subsequently i became more confident. not really satisfactory job though even though i think i will pass. i guess i gotta improve a lot not only in singing, but in keys... which i really wanna make use of the next 2 mths (which im most free) to really improve...

tmr gonna learn photoshop haha... not shop but photoshop haha

2008-10-08T11:17:00.002+08:00

my bro showed me this video - some comedy piano duet performance on the hungarian rhapsody 2... quite pro eh..

2008-10-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

great that promos has ended today! it basically sums up my academic life in j1 apart from chinese n pw (just this fast... and year end already)

and mugging for the past few wks had been tough... learning all concepts again (especially for history... so much). Thankfully the papers set were not as disastrous as midyrs for hist n maths. the others were kinda expected (to be tedious).

and with the next few days break, it will be cool and i really dunno what to do besides clearing my atriocious messy table. i hate to pack and sort out my notes. even while studying for exams, i juz slot all these worksheets into my files, and it's not in order all in a mess. and i guess tmr would be spring cleaning day since im not allowed to go to ubin w jonathan n yongshen -.-

new skills to pick up in the remaining days of this year!

God bless!

2008-09-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm still quite uncomfortable with speaking out, speaking to people and rather remain quiet. i rather write than speak. i rather do paper work than stand in front of a crowd or even talk to the people around me. it's not easy for me to talk, to be comfortable of who i am and how i express myself of being a person. the fear of stuttering in my speech, the fear of not being able to express out in proper language, the expectation of myself of having to speak well still lingers in my head.

it's at times when i dunno what i'm speaking. or rather when i speak, the thoughts dun formulate or juz dun click in my mind, and this could lead to kinda stuttering. i rmb when i was sharing at cell, the words juz couldn't formulate in mind fast enough and i couldn't put my words in sentences to express myself clearly... and sometimes this kind of thing put me down, and this fear of speaking juz creep in.

it's something that i sense that i muz grow from and learn from. it's a struggle i confess that at times when i speak, i become conscious of myself of how i express my being. and this verse : Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue." The LORD said to him, "...I will help you speak and will teach you what to say." - Exodus 4:10-12 (NIV) when i saw this verse at the side of my blog (the daily verse column) it triggered me to write the above.

and for whatever reason, i sense that im going to learn to be confident of speaking out. to speak out and express out myself, my feelings. seriously it's still kinda struggle but i guess im a better now... and that's maybe why i joined debates subconsciously (to improve my speaking skills as a person) and doing morning announcements help to overcome my fear. so i guess that im gonna learn to be confident to speak out, to speak about myself. and i guess it's a lifelong skill that im gonna learn. i rmb ps ong's prophesy 2 years back ' that i will think and speak at the same time'.... and though i din understand abt this then, i now understand why and God's gonna help me. and i believe im gonna get over this speech problem.

and juz now's radi8 was great! the video on e brooklyn church choir and the testimonies shown were great. it kinda stimulated in my heart something... about doing something. we may live as christians but showing it through actions is another. i guess i gotta learn to show it daily (like what Ps Wil said) ... not only through actions, but the daily things we do in our life. it all takes an effort. a thought-provoking session.

and thanks to adele for the muffins baked. though it was for derek's cell onli, there was one last muffin and i took it (feel jealous? haha). it's nice.

and supper was great with sherrilynn's randomness haha. and joshua, elisha , clarence, annika, amy n i were listening to the stories shared. it was a random convo talk . haha..

and F1 is here with promos in 2 days time. i guess F1 isn't gonna be a great decision with the vroom vroom sound. (i can't hear it anw unless i watch it on tv duh) . and well juz praying that God will guide n help me through e promos. juz committing it all to God.

cya !
ps. pls tag leh...

2008-09-24T17:22:00.002+08:00

Surrender (Only By Grace, Paradise Live)
Everything that was
Is in Your hands
And all that is to come
I give to You

Take control
This life belongs to You
Forgive me Lord
For walking my own road
Take control
Jesus take control

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
Now and forever

I surrender
Oh I surrender
Oh I surrender
To You
To You

That I may hear Your voice
That I may know Your heart
That I would see Your world
Through the eyes of hope
This my prayer oh God
This my prayer

Surrender. i remembered sharing this with the cell about a few weeks back. and with things that's flooding in my mind, promos, and e future... the lyrics juz mentioned about going back to God. put everything aside and juz go back.... it really encourages me and lifts me up. i rmb worrying over things... many many things... and this burden is so not cool to hold on to. and it's really my prayer that i learn to surrender the many things in my life. not my will but it's His will.

juz wanna encourage those reading this to let Him take control. and yeh, it's tiring at times but i guess learning to surrender resolves it all.

ok gonna do my work liao:)

2008-09-21T15:18:00.002+08:00

church was great today! and i feel challenged to give and pledge for e building fund... so that once it's cleared, more work can be done. and yep im saving.

yesterday went to celebrate my bro's overdue birthday (coz he was in vietnam for 2 wks) and went to jack's place. thinking of going to astons at katong but e queue was so long so we aborted e idea (or rather my idea).

then went to makan. so it was quite cool eating e steak (felt full after that and had problem walking... at least not as bad as going to sizzler... where u have to walk very slowly for your food to digest) ... and my dad asked e waiter: 'Can i get some onions...onions... 'and the waiter was initially puzzled...onions how to get in a restaurant? then i interrupted , saying ' onion rings' ... and then ya my dad said ya... then the waiter understood.lols.

and lately, i've been listening to songs that i've never heard before like 'how could i live' by hillsong , and here i am from eric lee... quite nice songs and the lyrics are really meaningful..cya

pls tag on my tagboard it looks dead.

2008-09-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

finally pw written report is done. thank God that it's been over . about half a year devoted to this project. (there's still oral presentation left... but that's after promos) . juz commit it to the Lord. thank God that it wasn't last minute for my group and we din had to bring printers to school to print or even binding machines to bind up our report (there were such cases that i've heard/seen today)

and it has been a hectic week. with my revision not really done yet. it's just 40 per cent i would sae. 60 per cent left to revise in one week. and the weekend is gonna be juz plain mugging. doing stuff that i haven't revise yet. and im grateful that i have one more week to study as compared to other jcs where most start this coming monday. thank God that there's time. and sometimes i juz stand in awe even in the things that's been done, that i've seen in my life and juz comprehend and understand. random here but true. haha

and today's worship set was good. considering the fact that the key leaders weren't there. and from ytd's practice the way we practice it wasn't juz atriocious, there wasn't any drive and support there, where we were somewhat lost in the transition haha. joshua n i were juz toking that we were plain noobs. thanks to sam for helping e musicians throughout the whole prac. at least got someone to help out if not i guess e musicians were lost.

today's run-thru at six was good. considering the fact that one time run thru w/o any hiccups . and the actual worship set was good i would say, and i felt (personal opinion) it wasn't as good as practice though. it was okish for me. and when review time came, i was kinda surprised when they say it was good ... becoz there were some stuff that we din quite do right. and i guess it could have been better really. the in-depth worship was there but it could have been more... but overall i would say it was average la.

joshua and i were toking about the part f0r e drum solo for hallelujah, when amy pointed towards dom, it was like a reflex action for both joshua n i who juz literally took our hands off our instruments. thankfully it was correct. we din hung on to our instruments. and i guess it was God's leading during worship time that the whole worship set was good.

anw, gotta start studying soon. 10 days to promos. haha

2008-09-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

i realised i've not been productive over the course of this weekend. been sleeping mainly yesterday and today, i onli started work at 5?

and being mooncake festival today, it rained. my mum was saying that today cannot see the full moon because the clouds cover the moon. lols.... what a day to celebrate ( but come to think of it, celebrate what ah? only see children carrying latterns with the music on there onli what) haha

and my bro juz got back from vietnam this evening. he enjoyed himself there but has now caught a fever and now resting at home. juz pray he'll have a speedy recovery.

was listening some christian music (especially one from paradise live)... unfortunately this particular album i was looking for, the chords din exist. well if anyone of you have the song, chords of this album unspeakable joy by paradise community church (released in 1998 - that's ten years back) please let me know.... i love e songs there. and looking for chords aren't real easy. my fulfilment of looking thru christian songs - i onli managed to download one song today onli - i wanna download more but cannot find.

anw using google chrome as a browser and blogging now using this server is quite fast actually. sad thing is it can't read youtube videos/imeem. muz download some stuff which im lazy to..

cya

2008-09-12T16:44:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks to promos. preparation n all this week. pray that God will help me through til 7 oct. and after that it will pw op and chinese As.

this week was rather useful. and i was kinda careful now not to board the wrong bus. now have to open my eyes big and board the right bus. yep the right bus.

had great time earlier chatting with jonathan over the phone and gmail chat. he's enjoying his time in vietnam, and he doesn't feel like coming back as his eoys exams are near when he returns. haha... and yep he will be back this sun.

anw, ytd morning while walking to my dad's car to head for school, my youngest bro n i saw a big dog with his owner. so i start to tease him to wave to the dog and wave 'hi'. and my bro literally wave and said hi, only to receive a shocking loud growl by e dog. scary seh... it looked quite tameless initially but its shocking loud growl made us laugh...haha dunno why we laugh but it's kinda experience for us.

later carecell n im preparing e lesson. juz committing all to God in the midst of my nervousness. haha

cya

2008-09-08T18:02:00.003+08:00

today sch resumed. new timetable so lessons end latest at 2pm. in prep for promos i guess cj is good in giving students a lot of time to study. that means i can prepare my revision adequately i hope.

while waiting for the bus juz now, i actually boarded the wrong bus! erhem... i thought i board the right bus lor... my eyesight got problem.. maybe the bus was too long (normally it's quite fast) then i boarded this bus. i din realised anything until it turned into toa payoh la... wth i tot can quickly go home makan. then stop at toa payoh and took a bus from the interchange. a bit kuku la... dunno how come can board the wrong bus seh. lols. maybe i stressed from sch? haha... first time make this kinda a mistake, which i hope is once in a lifetime.

ok gotta go mug now:)

2008-09-06T21:12:00.002+08:00

one week just like that it flew past. well it literally did. haha anyway, school's starting again this week and hopefully i get lots of time to revise. well it has been great thus far.

talking abt ytd's radi8. worship was great. and i guess it's all about moving forward, and not staying in e stagnant relationship w God. daring to have the boldness to declare the greatness of God, and holding on to the promises that He's installed for me. the 'dare-ness' to believe, the 'dare-ness' to do things never done before, and i guess i really need that sort of courage to take up challenges that seem tough on e surface but i guess it's God that's gonna take and pull me through.

cell session was great ytd. and it just reminded me of the vision of the youth grp. 2 years with this name radi8 , have i been that radi8tor or light shining, living up to e mission. every time i look and touch up e radi8 blog, it says 'every individual to project and glow' and sometimes i guess i fail to do that at certain times. i gotta ask God to help me. it really spoke to me when clarisa shared abt how to maintain the radiance of this light. it's all about moving forward in this relationship and not staying stagnant. and i really wanna be that radiance and that blessing to others - i just hope people would just respond to me positively.

cya!

2008-09-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

have been staying at home to do some revision in prep for promos. and the content for history is juz overflowing. though i like this subject of history, but the extent of content is way too much. and not onli muz i memorise content, i muz rite to argue my case in accordance to the question. that's challenging. i need God's wisdom really. and a good memory coz history is not the onli subject im studying. there are 5 more subjects (even though i dunno what efficient methods are there to study for gp and chinese)

and went to meet up with kenneth to ask him to coach me for math. on the way there in the bus, there was a loud convo going on and this middle-aged lady suddenly talk to a young lady (it soon occur to me that they knew one another) and probably becoz they haven't met for a long time, they started to talk (and the middleaged lady's voice was loud)... now u can see all the other communters' eyes rolling towards that spot wondering what's happening ... and quite funny the whole convo lasted and it continued even after i alighted. quite interesting to see the convo because a third party later came into the convo (she's not related to them in anyway) and started talking about how to travel from one part of spore to another etc.... interesting journey =)

and thanks to kenneth for helping me solve some math questions. it's the visual effect- that i lack at times to see and solve e qn. and hopefully i can solve such similar qns come exams.

anw tmr's radi8 and i guess i shld spend the rest of the 'holidays' more fruitfully by being productive

cya!

2008-09-02T13:48:00.002+08:00

my bro left for vietnam for some exchange programme today. send him off in the morning.

since i had nothing on, i decided to accompany my parents to send jon off this morning. he's going there for 2 weeks and i guess this is the longest overseas trip he had gone so far. and he's a light traveller. compared to the rest of his friends. and it's interesting to see how parents see their children leave the departure hall, saying byebyes and with one little kid waving saying byebye perhaps to his kor - all eyes looking into the departure hall. nothing wrong with that, and i guess it's a sign of concern.

then went over to terminal 3 to makan. quite spacious and quiet there. i guess that can be a cool place to do some video, publicity ads etc. considering the view.

then now back home n gotta start revision. cya

2008-08-29T23:45:00.003+08:00

holidays officially start. but as a typical junior college student, it's just a break from the routine of going to school. it's literally mugging session all e way.

this week passed swiftly, and it was great that i manage to relieve myself from pw which is more or less done. monday and tuesday were cool days. literally juz had to prepare econs test on wed. and that was pretty much this week. aft wed, it was kinda slack since it was approaching the holidays.

wed evening: went out w jaylord, clarisa n sam to toa payoh to discuss e preparation stufz for tonight's leaders day appreciation. it was fun and jay made a lot of cool jokes which were kinda nonsensitical abt sam. haha was laughing til i drop to the floor when sam did e 'thank you' video.

today:

teacher's day celebrations were cool. with naren n joshua as emcees, they were entertaining but went overbored at times. aft that, a group of ex-stgab from cjc flooded e bus and a big crowd of us going back, i could tell u it's overwhelming. went back to stgab for a while and talked to a few teachers. met some of friends who i havent come into contact w for a long time.

later on came back n tried to do some blogskin picture stufz but failed after many attempts.the pics were still a bit blur. dunno why even though i edited much.

then went to botak jones n join e youths at toapayoh. well stopped at a bus stop and since i miss e bus, i decided to walk all e way to braddell mrt where we suppose to meet. quite fast about a 7min walk and i guess pe lessons do help alot w strengthening exercises and running. reached there and walked towards botak jones. was just talking to janice n shirlyn abt e teachers day celebrations on e way there. then reached and met my bro, well kinda miss him as he's now away due to his boarding at ri and onli back during the weekends, furthermore he's going to vietnam next week. anw back to the event, clarissa brought some balloons which she got from some function in her sch. really crapped all e way throughout dinner and it's equivalent or abt e same as astons. quite affordable though and large size is better than regular since it's cheaper still even though i shared w clarissa e food.

haha had a fun time of fellowshipping. and clarisa's self-made ppt (powerpoint not precipitate) presentation went well with the videos abt us and sam's 'maid-agency lookalike' video of thanking sash n ben for being great n cool leaders. the shoes they bought n self-decorate were also cool. haha

anw tmr shld be e start of revising revising revising, writing writing writing , mugging mugging mugging. one more month.

seeya

2008-08-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

it's great that it's end of the week. got lots and lots of work to do and prepare for promos... tough boy and i like my exam table... there's 2 days break after every 2 days of exams... cool.

anyway, thankfully my pw task is more or less done now just getting comments from teachers. if it's more or less okay with some minor tweaking, i would say the main course for pw is more or less settled with the exception of oral presentation after promos. and after promos it's a level chinese which im afraid to say but im not prepared. well getting all sorts of means to prepare chinese soon.

and promos are 6 weeks away. that determines and i guess i gotta work hard n not be complacent as shown in my mid-yr results.

yesterday debates had volleyball. the initial plan was badminton but since no one brought rackets... with the 'great suggestion' by sabrina, heidi and wanyi, we decided to play volleyball which i have no clue to play. quite slack and quite painful considering that i had to play the keys for training session that nite. haha. and it was kind of cool seeing the volleyball thrown at different directions, out of the court (and i end up being the ball-catcher) and for me it was great though.

after that had music practice, where it was great and played some songs for a while after practice ended.

today woke up tired, and slept in the afternn. carecell was great with things learnt and the game r-o-c-k being played. and next week is at bota jones for fellowship.

this past week my nose hadn't been well and i've been sneezing quite a lot. the cause - i learnt that it was because of the air pollution caused by the 7th month.

anw tmr have some lecture (enrichment) on history at dunman high. ok gtg.

2008-08-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

trusting in God. keep on going and never give up.

yeh it's about that. im juz so weary from all the workload and stufz, with pw deadline to meet, with tests and promos in about 6 weeks time. it's so much workload and i tell u i would hv collapse and give up if i din had God by my side.

anw, it's been okish last week. and the pw interview thingy really worried me. after youth on fri, came back home and was told that an interview couldn't be conducted due to some accountability thing. and need letter from college. so due to lack of time, i wanted to avoid this proper process and thankfully and prayerfully i got another contact through amy, hopefully it would be successful.... it really disturbed me over the weekend.

youth was great last fri where we had a makan fellowship. it was great with clarisa's pasta, and we played a number game to finish e food. my stomach could still fill in some food, n i din mind eating. haha it was cool:)

ytd spent a whole day on history essay. history essay on asean was so tedious that i took a whole day to do it. gp essay was tedious n thank God i manage to finish. my schedule is all in a mess again.

today's msg in church was great! it spoke to me about having a fresh vision of God and sometimes we juz lose focus due to our busyness in life... everyone nids that...

oki cya!

2008-08-09T20:38:00.002+08:00

Forest adventure was fun!

this morning, youth peeps and i went to bedok reservoir for this adventure thingy where there are obstacles. im glad it was a fun trip though it was tiring climbing up rope ladders, swinging from one end to another, doing a tarzan stunt, flying fox etc.

it was quite fun having many youths going. and becoz my group was scheduled to start later, huimin brought some card games. and we the older ones played this game called 'ugly ugly ugly'. quite cool ah it's basically mix and match of 3 exact monsters. so when all 3 exact cards are turnover, one can start to shout ugly ugly ugly and quickly grabs the card. it can be quite tricky since some of them differ by juz 2 teeths - with one having 4 and another having 2 teeths. haha the first round was rough with franklin grabbing almost the whole deck of cards- hilarous haha. and when i played in e second round, it was quite fun where sometimes it took quite a while before everyone can spot that all 3 monster faces are being turnover. haha

anyway back to the experience, it was kind of safe experience and i guess if i had gone for such thing a few years back, i would be afraid due to my fear of heights. but once u take this whole experience calm and steady, i guess it shouldn't be any problem.

the tarzan one was fun where u just jump, and hit onto a net where u gotta cling onto. the height of the jump is a sudden steep one and it's quite cool la. dom hulme was telling me that he was afraid that he prayed this ' if i die from this jump, i want to meet God in heaven' . the flying fox was quite cool especially when u're able to fly above the trees and my landing was all backwards, and collecting much sand. so much so that when i took out my harness, a pile of sand literally came ' whoosh' out of my pants. literally it was one pile. haha i was laughing. came back home and had to clear much countless sand.

for me, i guess this entire experience was cool and fun. round 2 next time.

2008-08-09T07:57:00.002+08:00

wow it's national day. happy birthday singapore. well 43 years has been a long way man - juz marvel at the wonder of God's blessings

a typical busy week again. but i guess it was interesting by having different perspectives in life. looking things from a different angle do make life interesting and not just dull and boring. and i guess i'm learning to build my r/s with people better.

and yesterday's cell was the most appropriate for me. it was wonderful , talking about caring for one another. i realised it's my Archilles' heel, my weakest point in my life. so i really got to learn to make an effort. considered that i'm reserved, i gotta really open up and be really more friendly haha... so for those reading this, u gotta help me a lot. i really need that at this point in time.

ytd's nat day celebration (national day not nat) was kinda boring. after some parade thingy, had a walk from cj to ccab. thank goodness it was a walk not a marathon. it was cool walk. went there and had some song-singing. where mr nathan was asked to sing. haha my friend was saying- he scold so loud, sing so soft. true true. and then had some dance thingy
after the celebrations (actually it wasn't really national day celebratns) , went to makan at j8 w sean. then went back to stgabs to collect mag. met some of my friends and we played four rounds of bridge while waiting for another friend.

well later on there's forest adventure which i am gonna be really excited for. it's a time to unwind, a time to move away from a typical day's programmes.

this year's national day theme song - shine for singapore. i realised the lyrics for both eng and chinese are way different, different words different meaning. and i find the chinese one better. haha

anw have a great holiday!

2008-08-03T22:09:00.004+08:00

it had been quite a slackish week coz there wasn't any test. and for the past week, even if i tried studying , the most i could go up to is 11pm... and the next morning i will wake up fresh. good thing, but i couldn't do the things i intended to do... (maybe it was making up my lost sleep the previous wk)

the week started real fresh... knowing that God is with me... i dunno but i got this fear in me every morning when i woke up for the previous weeks. there was this fear that crippled me about going to school. it's about how i think this and this thing will work. and i guess that was eradicated away last week. i dunno why it happened but thank God for helping me through. cleared eom (which thankfully after painstankingly taking much time n having my bro to help me edit was accepted) and now it's left to WR n OP. 2 months more to promos.

and i juz hope that my friendship w others can improve. when sashi asked during carecell about the two names thingy, i was asking myself who and how. i knew it would be possible but i can't see the opportunites to share with them the gospel. coz my friendship with others isn't that close. it's juz such a 'hi-bye-schoolwork' thing. there are too many secrets among the cliques. and though i'm not in one of them, there's this superficial feeling i get when talking to them. there is just a short convo and that's all. after that it's continuation of talking to others. i'm praying abt it and really hope that i can communicate with them real well and ultimately i believe doors will open. and also i really need to be more outspoken.

and carecell on fri was great. it's about loving others around u and this is one of my weak point that i gotta work on. im not really a friendly person, my pr with others isn't that great. im kinda reserved and i guess i nid to be more outspoken. really praying for me to dare to make this stand. to move out and be more confident of myself.

and i realised i added a stranger on msn unintentionally. spelt my accl, ben koh's email wrongly ( i mismatched the last two letters ) .... in the end added a swedish guy. wow. i din discovered it. my bro talked to guy coz he got the contact from me. and my bro asked if he noe who he was.... and he replied back lilke who are you.... and he saes he's from sweden. wow.... and this guy probably added us thinking that we are some of his music friends... it really shocked me.

and i stand amazed and was overwhelmed at the things in life. as much as i would like to take a backseat and not want to take up any leadership roles, trying to keep mum and quiet, i sensed that God is telling me to take up such responsibilities no matter how tiring they are... i dunno but it was kinda unexpected when i got a recent leadership role. really surprised me as i din expect to even get any of the leadership postions offered. and the description of such role dun really suit me i guess... i think it could ultimately increased my pr afterall. and i'm really praying that politics - yes this lethal word - dun intefere and destroy relatioships. it's all abt teamwork here and i'm glad the rest of e committee got it. it's not about position, it's not about how great one is, it's not about hierachy, it's about relationships and working well with one another. well, another responsibility up my shoulder after a year's break (when i graduated last yr from stgabs)

today's message about temptations spoke to me. it's about daring to make a stand, choosing to make a stand. though it may be right to the world, it's better to be right with God then compromise with worldly standards. i need God to help me.

well school starting again tmr. and tests this weeek.. thank God for national day there's at least a break and yep, forest adventure on sat with the youths.

God bless!

2008-07-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

the past three days has been quite slack so far. maybe it's the joy of not having any tests thus far. it's good thing, where i can really sleep early and it's not stress. was really surprised with my schedule. thank God i cleared my eom early and the draft was returned back with comments saying that it can be accepted! whew.... eom has been a headache and tedious job.

but all isn't over yet, there's still this thing called wr (written report) where i gotta cut my grp's intro... far way too long... i realised i m all along a super chiong-hae person, very lor suo in terms of writing essay ( not in terms of speaking - it's the opposite in that case ) ... and my teacher sae it can be cut by 50 per cent... this shows i wrote 100% more than i intended ( not 50 % more - do your calculations ) so well gotta work on it... 1 month to do that w my grp

and realised that i gotta speak more and be more confident in that area. just really be myself ... i dunno why i m ranting about this . but i guess it's important for me to speak out and air my views ... and also gotta be a more fun person!

tmr's some amc competitn that i participate. hopefully it goes well!

God bless!

2008-07-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

how can i describe this week honestly? honestly busy i suppose

this week had been a week of test and trials, a test of perseverance, a test of going through things that's been real tedious, things that i loathe and it's all about something that no one will like.

work and tests. work and tests. work and tests. yep, they are stacking up real high and it's difficult and almost impossible to handle all these stuff on your own. project work is really stressing me out; the lack of time to study n revise what i really want to do is delaying my schedule. it's been a period of non-stop busyness, one work coming after another. an endless time - i wonder when it would stop. sometimes this is so inevitable. sometimes i wonder how could it possible - there i stand amazed that the grace of God has given me the hope and strength to pull me through. Time and again, His faithfulness towards us is just indescribable even though man fail him countless times. the strength of God to help me through each and every situation - i know it in my head that i can't do things alone but sometimes to we become skeptical of the things that God want to do in our life - we doubt and this is something im learning to avoid and trust God completely :)

this week started off with a bang! literally my friend who was supposed to do the daily announcements called me on mon morning and i was asked if i could replace her since she would be coming late for school. i was quite hesistant and went to collect the announcements only when the bell rang. it was okish - i gotta admit i was fearful - i sang the national anthem and said the pledge real loud to overcome the fear; i was hoping that time could delay even longer. i told God to help me and i guess i delivered the announcement well. it was past experiences that haunted me - i remembered in secondary schools, i did the same thing only to be embarrassed at the entire episode. but i guess that was the past, and the past can't prevail - it's the confidence that we have had in God that helps me through.

and i've learnt on making a stand this week. earlier this week i was so called reluctant and din help my teacher in doing some stuff. and he was quite unhappy about it, but i guess that situation reflected something about myself. just because my friends refuse to do it, must i follow them to please them? i think i gotta really learn to take a stand that is right, one that reflects the true me and it's something that i need the confidence to make it regardless of the pressures outside that is wrong.

and racial harmony celebrations yesterday for 2 hours was cool! yesterday marked the time with different ethnic costumes being worn - with some guys wearing singlets, sarong and slippers - the easiest and 'slackest' outfit i would say. was surprised that sab was awarded the best well-dressed female teacher in cj. she was wearing a pink sari and haha, it's cool :) another surprise that really caught not only me but most of my class was that we won some racial harmony quiz organised by the library. well most of my class din answer the questions - i did the ne questions and two of my friends filled in the rest by going to the library. cool prize we got - a hamper was awarded : chips, famous amos, chocs, sparkling juice etc. haha we started to eat them during history tutorial. econs test today was okish even though i din hv time to study for it. then rushed to ymca to attend pesa competition; well cj won 3rd overall and i guess it was great.

returned home and went for radi8 at night. started a new series and had a meaningful discussion on 'community living'. then broke into mini-grps where we discuss about how to build relationships... and this is one key area that i really gotta work at. really need help in relating to ppl i dun feel comfortable with or rather ppl who are not really friendly. it's a hurdle but i guess with the Lord guiding it would be possible. since my class is setting up a prayer group - exciting.

well it's going to be a greater workload next week. no one likes neither do i but i thank God for all that He has taught me and guided me this week :)

cheers!

2008-07-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

well work is piling up and really pilling up.. it's a test of faith and all that.
last week i dunno why... but i started to worry a lot... well worry for pw, worry for cca thingy, worry for quite a number of things and it was a fear that creep into me... i knew i had to trust God and i did just that , but somehow or rather, the fear or rather the burden came creeping back into me... it wasn't really a peaceful week last week....

and last fri youth during worship, it really spoke into my heart that sometimes i lost focus of who and how great the Lord almighty is. ppl focus too much on the problems and perceive our problems as so big that sometimes it's un-imaginable for it to be resolved. sometimes, looking towards God and not looking at the problem at all solves it all.... it's not within our own finite human capability but to really trust God wholeheartedly... i mean this issue God has taught me time and time again, and each time, my faith is increasing time and time again.... learning to really live and trust Him... infact, it isn't easy but lifting the burden and focusing on Him alone will really help...

last thu had chinese lc ... okish wasted tat last 2 qns went wrong... shouldn't be that way... after went back to collect o lvl grad cert.... feel good reading the testimonial and collecting e cert.... i was just amazed at the achievements over the past 4 yrs. at nite went for band concert at vch, it was a really last minute thing to get the tix before... juz the nite before that i confirmed the 5 tix... there was only a slight chance that i could get them... and my juniors did play okish i guess... its juz okish. but i guess there's much room for improvement for them. hope they like the chocs i bought haha... it was a last minute thing again... becoz i only knew that i was going for this concert the nite before.. and everything was last minute... haha

ytd's debates at acjc was okish.. and though i did attend the last round onli, i guess it was rather okay and we could hv won... juz left out a little substance. and glad to meet some sr peeps and one who's now in ac debates and she's so happen in charge of my debate grp... cool :)

today aft church mug the whole day for history test that's on tues... it's consider quite last minute for a subject like history.... anw juz pray that God will give me the wisdom to write well as well as the other tests this wk.

nat:)

2008-07-14T18:46:00.003+08:00

received back my mid-year results last week. was really amazed and im indeed grateful to God for the results .... totally unexpected and i noe it's not due to my strength and capability but God has helped me through tremendously... just cannot this feeling into words. it's undescribable,
'un-wordable' .. and project work has occupied my weekend.... it was pw pw pw and pw over the weekend doing an eom (not written report) ... and sometimes my group and i struggle over the focus of our project... what we really want to do... and sometimes i juz lose the focus... i jus really need to pray that God will help me through and solve the problem that pw has posed.
really really tedious... but i gotta trust God...

last friday worship was good. it was a great time of worship with shu ai did a great job in leading worship. i guess the team did a great job adapting to the new sound system and it could have been better ... my weekend was all about project work... and this week is gonna get more tough, more difficult i guess... and i need to tap on God's strength more and more, trusting Him more.

2008-07-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

radi8 yesterday was great. one week of living real, being real ... and it hasn't been that easy afterall... i guess i've failed in certain ways... and the 40 day prayer booklet really spoke to my heart.... it's all about the integrity of the heart, it's how real you really are. not easy being real here, but i'll grow to be more real and real as the Lord helps.

radi8 yesterday was great. worship took a different sense of atmosphere yesterday. it was something that pierces close to the heart. it's just being in the presence of God, longing more for Him and you know, this experience can't be expressed merely in words, only encounter can tell. and that's not the end of the whole big thing God has for each of us, it's more than that... it's to be pursuing the heart of God more n more..

today was rather slack...hadn't been doing much... had my history notes binded up. cool at least now there's space to put the other readings in my ringfile. then went to purchase some stationary stufz nearby. i wanted to get out of the house coz i felt quite stuffed in here. and as i was walking along the road, changes were right before me. sometimes we don't expect the changes to happen so fast. the nearby market is under construction, the lift outside my house is also under renovation, being baricadded by this white 'wall'. well renovation i guess... and it just spoke to me on how ppl dun like changes but it still occurs anyway. and the old goes, the new comes... and it reminded me of things in life - that i gotta move away from the comfort zone that i've settled in for quite a while and now gotta change. it ain't easy but i guess the purpose of change brings about greater meaning to the things i do. and along the way, i saw children playing... -pause for a while in my mind- well they were running around and the smile that beamed on their face... reminded me that as time passed, these kind of running and playing catching don't exist in my life anymore... when was the last time i played catching? i guess it wasn't too long ago - 2 years back if i've not mistaken where we a bunch of radi8tors went to sentosa to play catching... the police and thief game where the playground was the police and the tree was the thief's safe place... and it's the fun and memorable things that depict the life. but as things become more challenging, we have to face reality and move on. well i hope there could be a time of fun once more soon... sometimes, im juz not ready to take up the challenges that lies ahead of me, sometimes i want to go and juz chill and relax... and walking back home, seeing ppl from all walks of life. well, at that point of time, i was thinking that if each individaul was to pause for a moment in the heartland area (not orchard rd) and look at the people around u. well different people, different looks, different clothes, different smell, different things.... we are all different and we should really love the people around us and not dodge them even if we dun like them. i guess i'm still learning not to ridicule the people around u... even if u dun like, u should at least 'tahan' and not complain and murmur. in the bus to school, along the streets, in the lift etc.... and as i was thinking about this, walking towards the lift. this worker was waiting for the lift. at that point, some ppl would probably juz avoid the lift and move one side and wait for the worker to go up first. but it's really the love of God that's in me and like i said, i'm still learning... to accept and love the ppl around u.. juz simply pressing the button would be an impact to others. juz a smile on your face would make things a lot better and brighten your day. it's the love of God...

well i guess it was a meaningful walk where many thoughts prevailed in my mind. basketball game with bros and dad was great.... and i guess pe sessions in cj are alot helpful and have help improved my stamina lots...

2008-07-04T15:46:00.002+08:00

well week 2 has passed by just so swiftly. everything has been okish so far with new content from history, math that i nid to absorb into my head.

the week has been great coz i believe God has been taking control of my week so far. I've heard of friends who complain of the never-ending workload, the work more work and also project work. not easy i gotta really admit... but i dun feel like complaining about all this stuff.... this verse from col 3;23 has been in my mind for a long period of time. in terms of studies i should really cling onto this verse in my heart and do it all for God. it has been speaking to my heart and i really thank God for the progress i've made in cj so far. really unexpected but i guess it's the wisdom and strength of God that had carried me through. im not saying that im exceling all the time but the progress i've made hasn't been as bad as i expected. and i have to really acknowledge that God has been my helper and my strength in my times of need . that im weak and i got to tap on His strength. and when we do well, all glory really goes to God and the act of humility should be sealed in my heart. it's all about living for God here... so easily it's forgotten, so a constant reminder is definitely needed.

in this past week, i wasn't used to getting up early. anxiety, weakness for certain stuff that weren't immediate events. i guess i worry for nothing... and in the book of matthew it mentioned do not worry for tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. so trusting in God and believing in Him is the best and most secure way to go... even though things in future are uncertain (no one can foresee the path we are taking except God) , i still will trust in Him....

and it's all about trusting God and living a life all for Him.... i juz need to constantly remind myself about this becoz humans often forget about it... we know it in our heads but not in our hearts... so it's all about Him and not me at all... i just can't reiterate the point... living a life all for God is really different

2008-07-02T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hey!

Lessons resumed per se yesterday . papers won't returned yet onli will receive it back next wk. went through answers and oh boy, it was horrible.... well jc stufz though u noe it, it's not easy when u answer the question. i guess history and chem was the onli subject that went okish.

anw got a new co-form home tutor.... well i guess it's good not onli to me but to all becoz my home tutor is not really likeable. so during sd and pw it will be 2 teachers.... and i guess the start of term 3 was a bit different for me, i just sense a new sense of atmosphere and feeling around me.... i guess it was after youth camp that i started to hv changed better perceptions...

today during econs tutorial, my friend was asking my home tutor what's the difference between small convenience stores n provision shops, he sae there's a difference. *scratches* both are small so they are different? dunno la... but he contradicted himself during lessons

then math tutorial the whole class said in unison 'Sorry' before greeting. wow sorry for not doing well in math midyear... hilarious everyone started to apologise to her.... haha.. well gotta really buck up this term

anw the 40 day prayer booklet just reminded me of the youth camp. about getting real with God... juz have to reiterate the point over again. it's all about integrity of our heart towards God. being true and doing things for God with a heart of integrity.

oh well busy days ahead

2008-06-30T18:06:00.002+08:00

well today marks the end of JUNE. Half a year is gone so fast. just as i was adjusting to jc life, it's just been this fast. from the beginning it was pae period, collection of o lvls, posting , meeting new friends and time is just so fast... come to think of it , promos is 13 weeks away. whew

anw yesterday's lunch with cell was great. went to makan with 12 others... and it was great fellowship, later moving to coffee club for some drink of water . well, had time of fun and chatting , with a bit of crap talk. and i just found out that my cousin's cousin's cousin (well very long distance) is someone from the youth... wow such a small world. won't sae it here u go find it yourself.

today's oral was okay. managed to talk and just committing it to God. well lessons resume tomorrow with pw and more stufz piling up my head haha...

well that's abt it!

2008-06-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

well yesterday marked the post-exam holidays... well relaxing from the midyears finally.... short one though but at least better than nothing.

started off the day with pw meeting (which was needed since dateline for draft is next wk ) ... really prayed for the meeting... as i dunno how i was gonna lead the group and how things will be done.. thank God it was good, it was productive. reached national library early while the rest were late... but it was quite good meeting able to complete mostly of what i wanna do... the outline of wr draft that is the most important element of pw was done, juz need to add stuff

ytd nite combined prayer meeting was good . great time and i guess it's a good time for the whole church to come together to pray for one another. prayer is a key tool and important tool, really essential. then went to help do some math questions and headed for supper with jonathan. where we with derek n huimin talked about indonesia food and stufz... jonathan is promoting his country haha

today was really a slack day. read through some chinese oral stufz to prepare for oral on mon. went for grandfather's bdae in the nite... and a video created by my cousin was nice .... haha

anw tmr's lunch with carecell grp and my holiday will end on mon. school will resume 1 july... so fast 1/2 a year is gone ... wow...

2008-06-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

GREAT! MYEs are finally over!

well the weekend is gonna be filled with activities for me though, with pw meeting tmr... hopefully it would be really fruitful! as we complete the draft and submit it next wk

then chinese a level orals on mon! thank God for guiding me through the MYE period... it hasn't been easy after the holidays, going back to sch for exams... well, it's reality. and this term is gonna be jam-packed with things that im looking forward to , as well as things piling up my head haha

but for now, i guess i can relax for juz a little while... haha

2008-06-23T23:46:00.003+08:00

well ytd's service was great and it spoke about us. really reminded me how often i forget about the promises and commitments made, only to fall back into square one. how i need God to help me through this walk. oh well.

econs test was okay... initially i tot the paper was 2 hours 15 mins, only to be told it would be slightly longer by 1/2 hr.... and the teachers took 45 mins to collect the papers.... but thankfully i was talking to my friend during this period abt church camp and stuff so i wasn't that sian.

the paper was okay and i guess it's probably a lack of practices provided. otherwise i guess we could do better. anw, it's over juz commit it to God.

wed's is math and thu chinese paper.... with a lvl orals either on fri or mon... then gonna chiong pw already... got to tap on God's strength to pull me through... a new term, a challenging one ahead... half a year is gone...

God bless!

2008-06-21T13:04:00.002+08:00

ytd's radi8 service was awesome. well, after days of mugging at home, it was a moment at radi8 where i can juz de-stress and praise God. quite difficult i suppose with all the history stuff in your head, but i guess by trusting n committing to the Lord, all is good.

apart from the prize presentation in which i was surprised that my team won the games... haha and also each grp ic given a name, thankfully mine wasn't very bad.... someone sae it really reflected me , the group discussion really sunk deep into my heart. applying what've we learn and living for Him, not easy but can be done. juz got to really put Him first in my life.

today's history paper - 3 hours , 4 essays (2 were guided). i thank God that i could write non-stop for 3 hours. wow. never done that before in my life. and it was okish .... at the end of the exams, my hand was pain and my neck was real stiff.... haha... but i guess there are a lot more 3 hour papers to go.

and thank God for guiding me.... more papers next wk and after that, lessons resume. half a year juz passed. wow fast man.

2008-06-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

well exams resume in 2 days time... wow that's really fast man

anyway had been doing studying for the past 4 days. really sad life man... i gotta admit it's back to reality after last week's Get Real! Youth camp... getting real in reality , living REAL is tedious and i gotta really lean onto God to live a fulfilled life!

wow... i had some post-camp blues after youth camp... it was really really fun last week and i just hope that there could be a longer time. thank God tmr is camp echo so tmr would be the official end of the camp... But come to think of it it's not about camp anyway, it's about how one lives for God that matters after the camp... being real to yourself and to God. a heart issue that requires a very long time to be genuine to yourself n God.

anyway, exams would start this sat and end next thurs... one more week to the end... then i would start chiong-ing pw and it would be lessons resume... not forgetting chinese orals ahead .... wow really nid to improve my chinese .... it's juz 4 mths more!

yep that's about it for this week.... God bless!

2008-06-16T12:19:00.002+08:00

hey back from youth camp on friday night...

well the whole of last week was great time at port dickson. youth camp was great! well, i just can't reiterate the point but God is just so good throughout.

day 1
reached church abt 640+ in the morning... jus couldn't sleep the previous night. well we are so hyped up and ya left for checkpoint. not many ppl could tolerate the tour guide in our bus when we started our journey after clearing customs ( not complaining here... hehe) . but apart from that, the bus journey was long and just slept most of the time... only to play bridge while reaching there. the lunch in melaka was great... with shu ai and franklin going around from one table to another taking wedding pics... reached the resort... and well could tell it was a little run down and old... but i guess it's still 'survivable' - definitely if not why ps wil would book this place. and the games were short due to lack of time. and my group i guess is great - with dom hulme, franklin, marcus koh, angelica, tiffany, and trischa (who was here for the 1st time)... but i guess we gel well and i mean God really taught me alot here through this experience as grp ic.

night service was great... difficult questions were asked... and ps julie was great! she's so sensitive to God that in subsequent services, it was more of ministry than preaching. well our hearts gotta be settled first before we can hear the word.

day2:
woke up and started doing the devotion. i conducted it in somewhat chim way... but well it's a learning process and i think i was better for the subsequent devotions... juz gotta let God take charge. morning services were great...simple activity on bgr thingy - on what guys want girls to noe and vice versa- the rebuttals and arguments were clearly put forth from both sides. at the end of the session, ps julie juz said that we are all special and unique in the sight of God... wow. afternn games of 5 stations was great... won 3 games... lost one becoz i lead my member to sit on the wrong chair... and the other was a close narrow gap of 1-2 in captain's ball. after games, played a game of captain ball at the beach. great fun!

food was not really good... flies flying here and there... and i guess i got used to it soon.

night session was great where at the end of the session, each one of us were told to support and thank Ps wil by giving him a hug... well it was a moment that was rather emotional....

day3:
devotion was good i sae... i juz let God take charge. and thanks to Franklin for helping me.... morning's altar call was dealing alot with the heart issue.
and different leaders prayed over my life - well, it was something that i really needed... and well it sure helped me place my trust inGod.
photo taking session was way too long.... haha... but i guess we weren't very hungry due to God's presence in the altar call.
games weren't tiring in the afternn.... played some passing the plates game... and we won.... thank God. well i din expect to win actually.

then while others swam, we played taiti - 8 of us , my bro jon, me, derek on, michelle, tiffany, josiah, adele and bo chun... well bo chun was losing horribly in the initial stages of the game... and derek made a prayer which he won - for that round... haha... take note God doesnt approve gambling it's wrong. and subsequently it became a vicious cycle where i was one of the top two... and bo chun won for three rounds i guess...

night service was great! i juz hoped that the camp could just continue. just as we are settling down, we gotta leave the next day. night games were dirty... had to lead my grp and it was a challenge with them being blindfolded and giving them instructions.

well the camp for day 4 swiftly past and it was quite a fast journey back home compared to going. well, exams are starting in 5 days time... and it's really the time to live REAL! and that's the camp about getting REAL!

2008-06-09T23:23:00.002+08:00

woah...

anw had a great time with my p6 classmates at aston's specialties in katong. it was great had a great time of fellowshipping since the last time we met last nov. and the food is quite filling and affordable despite of the long queue and the long wait for the food. initially, a few of us thought that the food quantity was small and wanted to go to coffeeshop to makan... but it won't be that nice to leave the other 9 ....

well chatted alot that i was one of the slowest eater.... maybe nv meet long long then chat alot. and i was rather surprised that grace is a big eater.... woah she and chenghui r big eaters mann... one plate not enough eat the leftover potato skin from me, amanda and the bolognese from daphne.... woah i was teasing her that after this, we go eat ice - cream or probably the next door chicken rice...

well there were a few people who i haven seen for 4 years... anthony n jiahui... woah ...they changed alot ... at first din recognise them hahaha

then we all go katong village and some guys started to play pool. i tried once... at the opening... but it was lousy... the ball jumped...haha... somemore no strength to hit the ball... haha.... then while the rest were playing pool, anthony , me and grace started to play tic-tac-toe...surprisingly there was a whiteboard there (for whatever reasons) and to pass off time we started to play... then later play hangman.... quite interesting to guess things.... then anthony started to draw some things such as balloon dog and asked each of us to guess... it was rather lame...

then grace started to do her biology mindmap there... haha... and i started with my history sea nationalism mindmap.... haha.... thank God that the owners did not chase us ... (anyway, what hv we done wrong?) .... wanswen was going around camwhoring.... n i left earlier coz gotta set off for youth camp tmr....

well will be at portdickson... for the next 4 days.... pray that it will be a great encounter with God

2008-06-08T21:54:00.004+08:00

today was great. i felt so excited for the camp briefing today and i kept thinking about it. camp not yet start think about camp briefing...ya lor... weird la...

anw i guess my group should be quite fun with dominic hulme around...he's really nice to talk to and well i guess to make my group interesting.... i gotta be real enthu and bond them well... nid God's help man... and with franklin assisting n supporting me i guess it shld be good n cool!

anw the services in morn and evening was great! it just strike through my head (yep the word of God is powerful to strike through spiritually) that we gotta trust God no matter what - even though it is unfair, but continual trusting in God will lead to eventual and eternal blessings.

after that went out for lunch then went to buy some barang-barang in preparation for the youth camp. well it's great that the youth camp is coming. haha 2 days time. that was digression... and went for music prac at 4 pluz ... and the worship was great too. din focus too much on the chords today it's all abt worship.

the message about desiring more for God ties down with worship set. it's just a really really essential thing that we gotta know and put into action.

tmr i guess i won't be doing anything much. and meeting my p6 classmates for dinner gathering tmr. woah time juz flies

2008-06-06T23:53:00.003+08:00

well youth service was great! it just reminded me of the heart issue once again. how true we are to God. and it just reminded me of the very depth of the heart. the intentions and the ways of the heart. For God says He looks at the inside not the outside (1 Sam 16:7)

and it was really a deep reflection on how we live our lives for God. living for God isn't easy but with God it will be meaningful and purposeful. it just pierced right into my heart. what does it mean to really get real with God. well a few days ago i got this revelation that it's all about the heart issue. the issue now is about me, about the individual. as i prepare myself for youth camp, i got to really check myself hard and humble myself for Him to do a deeper work. well it's just on how hungry and fervent i am.

and birthday for sashi and amy after service was real too long. tedious to get them down ensuring that it's a surprise. thank God that they did not notice anything suspicious before that. especially when sash ask me to press the lift to 2nd floor... i purposely delay and say oops sorry it went to the first floor. and great most of the youths were there! and i guess i should chk out the price of cakes next time ... hehe

anw, was doing some blog-hopping and notice that clarisa's consecutive posts were on lame stuff and drawing - creative indeed .... i dunno why im blogging abt it but i guess it's interesting to take a look at her posts haha

anw youth camp in 4 days! yup i dun wanna stay on the same again. i wanna come out different.!

2008-06-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

hey!

this week for me was uber studying. wah ... coz 1 week is gone next week due to youth camp which is in 5 days time! it's been just plain mugging all the way... and youth camp would be great time !

it's so much of studying... actually im taking pace la....

after debates ytd went to cineileisure subway to eat with other debaters... it's quite good bonding session and well we heard some interesting stories from clifton about this mj girl (his neighbour) staying in a house with barbed wires... which he claim that it is suppose to prevent her from sneaking out of the house.. and says that the father does barbed wires...

all of us were pretty amazed. barbed wires around your house to prevent u from escaping? and he describes the front of his house with a huge wall .... sounds like a fortress... and we probably dun believe his story becoz the reason was quite ridiculous. there's no dogs in the house...

so i asked him a question ' Do you talk to your neighbours? ' (you cant judge things by jus seeing) and he replied with an affirming tone 'NO'.... wow my other friends were saying you dun hv to reply with such affirmation... we were laughing... well he amuses all of us... but we can't be too mean to him too...

anw Youth Camp is in 5 days time - just looking forward to it!

2008-06-01T22:20:00.002+08:00

wow.. today was great time. the message in church really spoke to me. it was just so great and it just clicked right into my spirit ... we must know who we are in Christ, and it just amazes me that often or not, we always exploit ourselves and be condemned by the devil many a times, forgetting the inheritance we have as a child of God. it just spoke right to my heart that as a child of God, we are blessed richly. and we should never give up what we have from God (or what as referred as birthright in the context of Esau) so cheaply and easily to others who are known as cunning exploiters..

and now going back to yesterday:
i made a hasty decision to skip the dance concert and go out with my family to watch prince caspian.... well it's a nice show with great effects and it was great! shan't reveal too much here if not it will become a spoiler.

any way it's just one week for mugging for me. huh? what u mean? before youth camp next week... i got to use this one week to study as much as possible in preparation for the post-hols midyears exam. and i just can't wait for youth camp that's in 9 days time! im feeling so excited and i thought it could have just start this week and maybe end next week... "one week camp"... haha

2008-05-30T23:15:00.003+08:00

wow the first week of the holidays have just swiftly swept past... three more weeks and midyears will resume.

this week mon and tues went to school for history lectures. was okies just refreshing my memory. but at home history is so much, the notes, the content , everything about history is taxing. and it's not just facts that u have to memorise u muz noe how to categorise them so that it's relevant to what the question is asking in the exams. so it's pretty okay this week with wed and thu mugging at home and feeling a little bored, i initiated to play badminton with my brother yesterday evening.

de-stress . and for history im barely done with southeast asia, let alone international which is more difficult. oh well, gotta pray for God's strength to pull me through and help me through...to make my studying period really really effective. and it's not just history that i got to mug for, there are other subjects which are equally important as well. econs , maths and chinese (which i haven done anything) .... life is just so like that lor.... books in front of u and ya, so far it has been rather manageable since my schedule doesn't nid me to be so hiong in school activities. so it's good to have the time to study compared to others who are very involved.

ok enough of ranting, today went to school for some pw meeting. and eom is just tedious , it's like doing aq in a gp paper. identifying arguments and all sorts... but well it's just need to be done. with God's help of course.

so thankfully and prayerfully God has helped me through this past week, sticking to my schedule mainly and i really hope that it's put to good use. so that when i come back from youth camp, hopefully i will remember what ive studied in the first 2 weeks of this hols....

and talking about church stuff, it just daunt onto me that alot of ministry work (especially for the youth camp ) is pilling up and i really nid God's wisdom and strength to pull me through. how weak each one of us is, that we gotta cling and tap onto God. and even me being a group ic in the youth camp, it's not gonna be easy, doing a lot of pre-camp preparations and really gearing up and preparing my being for the camp

okies that's abt it:)

2008-05-25T00:07:00.004+08:00

today was literally outside home!

this morning went for some personal medical checkup. i can't do blood test in future next time already. in the midst of extraction of blood, a fainting spell overwhelmed me. well i was quite shocked . at first, everything was normal, i wasn't frightened, din even look at the blood ; and well i did gave the nurse a shock. haha well thank God everything went fine. my face turned pale and lips were pale. maybe i've got iron-deficiency. muz eat red meat! haha well gotta chk the root cause for this! anw after this incident when i took my blood pressure it was normal. probably at that point of time all the blood juz drain from my brain leaving no blood left. whew! thank God everything was fine

afternoon went for some youth group ic training session. the icebreakers thing was quite fun and without thinking , i uttered that carrot is a Fruit! Wow it's a new finding! huimin was saying that i maybe go to the auntie in drinks stall and ask her for carrot juice ! haha.... joke of the day man! then had some devotion thingy where group ics are asked to lead the members during the camp. well it's a challenge to me then but with God's help, things will be awesome i hope!

then went for youth fusion rally at calvary ag. was a great time of worship and there was clarisa's testimony video shown too. the sermon by youth pastor glenn lim was great. it was his testimony. well, had heard him preached a couple times (and some of the stories ive heard before) a few years back and well, his testimonies are still awesome, signifying the manifestations of God's grace and love towards us. that to go forward to reach our destiny, we should have an identity and to have that identity is to have a relationship with God. wow! it just reminded me that God has a plan for each one of us but the question is whether ppl want to yield and follow God's perfect plan. so it was definitely a great time !

and this song below (healer- planetshakers) was great!

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
My Healer, You're my Healer

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

then had dinner with the youth peeps where the auntie was 'very organised' in taking orders. i've learnt something - fried rice got a variety, the auntie has to confirm wiht eugene that his order is ordinary fried rice.

haha it was a fun day today! God bless!

2008-05-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

wow the school holidays are here!

this past week was cool... with one day of school and some days of mugging .. paper in front of me, reading and memorizing facts. thank God for the good memory He gave to me... and im still amazed at things i remember (not just academic, but other details like birthdays etc.)

anw, mon was studying and cannot mug whole day so wanted to chill and relaz for a while... evening went out to play touch rugby with youth . juz opposite church lays a field and it was quite fun! hilarous too! well it's my first time playing and well although it's hard im sure all of us had great fun man! haha

tues was school and yes the only day of school this week. it was okish i would say. well last minute stuff won't prep u up well for mid years. thank God i wasn't feeling this way.

wed was study day and was at home reading gp notes ...

thu was gp and for essay, the questions was relatively ok. at first i din noe what to write becoz it wasn't the questions i expected. initially din had much idea but as i progress writing, ideas just flow through my mind and the scope of my essay widened. paper 2 on compre was tedious i agree with my friends that the passage was unreadable even though my teacher claim it to be that way . for summary i felt like giving up and skipped to aq, which i dunno what i was writing . went back to summary and do it... finally understood what the question was asking and tried to put in relevant points down. paper 2 was real horrible i sae.

then had a 30 qn ne quiz on current affairs. thank God i read newspaper and i do noe how to answer the mcq qn. if only this component is incorporated into gp, it would boost my marks for gp... haha

this afternn went for chem paper. mcq was a little tedious and there were many qns to do. not that straight forward like class tests but it was manageable. and that's the end of my exams for now.

holidays have started and it's gonna be busy preparing for the rest of the other h2 papers and chinese. pw preparation and more.. and i juz can't wait for youth camp

anw had youth bbq in the night. it was a great time of interaction and fun haha:)

2008-05-17T14:02:00.002+08:00

wow next week is the end of the term. and gp and chem midyr is next week. thankfully the school is good to give us lots of days to study ... apparently only one day of school next week.

well, it's been great knowing my class and having lots of fun (though im not the typical fun person) but 'fun-ness' adds something bright to the dreaded and bored mugger life. it's not good to study all day and hv no life...

and debates games bonding session on thurs with floorball n frisbee were fun :) with funny game playings and mistakes that we make... haha.. well it was a fun time!

ytd was a great day after taking history fa... it was quite manageable... and also thank God that i passed my econs case study test even though i din study for it.... was pretty surprised. it's just the dependance n tapping on God's strength and wisdom that had sustained me through the year so far. im not smart , probably just hardworking, and it's through God's grace that i did okish in my academics so far... so i dun really gain the credit. God does not me. even though i hv more time to study now... but i learnt that with our own limited strength, i can't achieve anything that is of success. well, with God, it makes a big difference

and ytd's radi8 service on thirsting and hungering for God. it just reminds me of the unsatisfied satisfaction ; that it's a form of desperation, a source that we need to tap on to for survival and for fulfilment... it just cannot be literally explained in words. well it was a great time of bible study and also reflection on our relationship with God as well as man..

did some gp reading today in preparation for gp exam next thurs. and the more i read, there's alot of controversies and debates on certain issues- basically who is right/responsible etc. well, both sides have certain points of validity but i've noticed that the argument between both parties would carry on infinitely. im not against gp or against arguments. but sometimes man's stubborness on insisting his claim or argument leads to greater tension between two parties and it may ultimately blow up to a cold war. maybe that's exaggerated but the path towards cold war is there... some things i realised which has been put in place for a long time can't be changed ; it has been ordained by God and man try to manipulate and maneouvre his way around to change how things are really. the way man thinks and believes that his way is right and his refusal to accept alternative views..

and the more we read such arguments, there's nothing wrong with them but crossing a certain line and aggressively stating your point may lead to greater conflict between two parties.

so the more things happen, i guess growing close to God n having a christlike character makes u different from the way the world thinks

2008-05-12T17:25:00.005+08:00

the weekend has been really refreshing even though there were many things on my mind.

i just thank God for His strength and favour to pull me through tough times...

friday had radi8 service and it was great time and i just love this song ' One Thing' from Saviour King album... it just speaks to my heart that we all yearn for God more and moreand how great is the Lord ... setting aside all our burden n workload, putting God first .And it ties with the message on the fourth beatitude - " Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” that as we soak in the presence of God, we want more... it just can't be explained... encounter tells u all!

and saturday had math bridging in the morning.... well it was quite a fruitful session i would sae with 9 other classmates and i guess it was pretty fun as well.... then rushed to smu school of econs for some smu hammers competition.... well it was very very delayed schedule with whole thing ending towards 8 , but it was an enriching one to learn from our fellow peers and others.. and it was quite unfortunate that the j1 team lost to a thai team who couldn't even speak properly

sun went to church - well it's pentecostal sunday . and again it is about yearning more for God , knowing God's agenda and knowing the Father's heart. it's just so amazing how it links with friday's msg. and the filling of one's soul - the feeling is so good , that u want even more... and now i can still feel it - it's juz so amazing and great!

today had chem test and i guess it was okish. anw it's God favour and God strength that i nid throughout the week. my classmate juz passed me some history notes to photocopy (which i needed but din ask for) - and this is the 2nd time that this occured , and the first time was from a different classmate.

and i realised that we are so weak that we can't even stand upright without the help of God. the strength of God that i need to pull me through ... next week is midyears for gp and chem.... and im juz trusting God to pull me through and help me through this period of 2 weeks before youth bbq on 23rd nite and fusion rally on 24th as well as youth camp on 10th.jun.. i juz can't wait for that...

so pls pray for me as i go through this next 2 weeks ... that God will sustain me through it all!

2008-05-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

it has been past one week ... how time flies

two weeks from now is my midyears for gp and chem ... still havent prep up yet... time is just flying so fast

the past week had been okies... with a econs test on mon that i din noe (or rather my whole class din noe) it's stated on the schedule but we din bother much abt that since teacher din sae anything

anyway, chinese oral was okies for me thank God i could speak but there was limited vocabulary.. chem test is postponed to next week

and today, i was given a last minute notice to replace someone for debates thingy during cca today... it was not good man... even though there was less prep time for me, speaking for 4 mins pluz wasn't really good... the content was not really there... but i guess it's something i learn though haha

and throughout the week, tapping onto God's strength and depending on Him is really essential. i can't do it all by myself, it would be so tiresome and weary throughout these processes... Thank God for His strength! and throughout the next 2 weeks of tests, i pray that God will grant me the strength and wisdom to pull through before school closes! that would be great by then!

so it's radi8 tmr again and i realised for 3 consecutive weeks, i've been playing the keys ... haha but it's where i really learn after long periods of non-practice haha

2008-05-02T17:09:00.002+08:00

today was a great day! it was sports carnival at ccab... great that the school arranges this day as sports carnival.... so it's a long break since yesterday.... it's a needed one too

reached there at around 7.30am , and everyone was roaming round.... soon the track relay started.... well my classmates team drop the baton during the relay and yeah it kind of slow down.... but it's good overall...if im not wrong they have gone through a few trial before this final race...

played captain's ball and hand's ball..... played captain ball with a score of 5-5 then played hand's ball where we drew.... the opponents are quite tough... For the second captain's ball game (which i din play - i was playing handball) , my class lost 1-6 and ironically we still managed to qualify for the quarters.... haha.... we were kinda surprised... although we hope to seize this opportunity to win and proceed to the semis... we lost to the score of 2-10... the opponents were way too strong... we were always on the defensive side instead of attacking....

anyway it was great time of fun even though we din win any prizes... went for lunch and ya gotta go for radi8 now !

2008-05-01T17:01:00.002+08:00

wah it's finally a holiday... well it's just time to have a break since the last break.

the week has been busy, completing project work tasks, researching for debate articles, studying for history test and thank God for the strength. the past 3 days had been an awful tiring experience with tests and tests and more preparation for tests as more are approaching ... with chinese oral on monday...

and thinking that chinese a lvl is jus right at the corner, im still not prepared and even though it doesnt count, but it's still good to do well for God anw...

history night yesterday was great.... with the fellow j2s acting on different political situations like marcos, berlin wall , fall of ussr and cuban missile crisis... it's really interesting and i realise that history is something that i really enjoy since young...

and more homework to be done with tests and all... i guess u read all my posts... it's all about tests... its juz inevitable in jc life...

thank God that in the midst of all these workload n stress, i've got a fun class where people laugh loudly, create jokes... and it's just fun ... and my class even recently created a family tree lols...
im the doctor :)haha

and it's great that tmr's is sports carnival at ccab.... finally a great refreshing time to unwind .... and ive also just realised that 1/3 of the year has passed... it's so fast considering the many friends i made this year...

and it's also true that when approaching weekends it's great coz of radi8 service... i dunno why but it can be considered the highlight of each week haha...

and i juz need God's strength every week....

God bless!

2008-04-18T17:20:00.002+08:00

this week was great!

i really thank God for guiding me through this entire week , that God will guide me no matter what happens... during last sun's altar call, ps james actually said that God will guide me line by line... step by step God will guide me along throughout ... it just amazes me that when u entirely trust God he is there for you and things will succeed! that we are so weak that we gotta depend on Him for His strength to pull us through...it's hard work but through pressing on and believing in God, the fruits that we bear in our life is wonderful , to the point where u didn't even expect!

throughout the week, i was abit apprehensive about my pw group's gpp.... i was wondering if there was anything wrong abt it and afraid that ideas generated may not be good... but by learning to let God take charge, i can see that my group are in the progress of generating ideas...

and i attained my first ever napha gold in my entire education life! wow.... i just hope and aim for a silver standard (which is cj's passing mark) and it just amazes me that i did a re-test this weeek for the 5 stations... coz i din make the mark for standing broad jump.... so i redid the 5 stations, the grades were the same as last week except that with the strength of God and prayer, without any practice over the weekend ( becoz my legs were aching real bad after the previous pe session on 2.4km test) , i jumped far and my teacher was pretty amazed... from a mere 210+ to 230+ ...20 cm jump within one week... she asked me to do it after pe again ...juz for the sake of doing... and i jump a distance of 230+ again... wow... it's just amazing

this week din had much tests.. it's okies still but just alot of work .... and i juz thank God that i did quite okish for my first history test...

so lots of work to do and it's through God that all things are possible and it's also with faith!

2008-04-12T00:04:00.002+08:00

the past week was a real busy one.

tests, tests and loads piling on the way soon... no surprise it's jc life.

it's really mentally difficult to go through the whole processes and one thing one of my church friend said last week that ' perseveration ' is the key to sustain yourself. oh well i just gotta do well n put in my best effort.

pe napha this week was good... all stations and 2.4km run was great except my sbj (standing broad jump for short) ... it's an E grade... and it means i hv to retake the 5 stations all over again just becoz of this one station...i still dun understand why i can't jump far even though long legs help alot (according to the masses who sae it) and i guess it's true but it doesn't work for me.. so my legs are really aching .

chem test was okies... had my first chinese ting xie after two long donkey years.... tingxie in jc is so fun... everyone can talk in between the questions... lols

econs test... dunno what i was writing but im afraid im not writing to the point and i guess over this weekend i gotta do lots of work for history to catch up ...

anw ytd's debate was a part 2 on public speaking.. and each of us were told to give an impromptu speech... well it was okies... my structure was there it's just my eye-contact with ppl. and today had a prepared speeech audition to do after school... i dunno how i fared though... but i guess the topic i chose was rather interesting.

and i'll be attending midc at tpjc tmr afternoon... and time is so constraint... pw gpp is up next week and ya more deadlines coming soon

and juz now at radi8, we had a discussion of the second beautitude of joyful mourners...that it's abt spiritual mourning. that we shld repent and say that God in times of hardships God is there for us to comfort us.

and it's so funny during carecell just now with someone in the cell
sash just joked that the book of psalms is in new testament and he turned to new testament to look for it.

david committed 'theft' with beersheba...

well, dun believe all that it;s just fallacies

after that went down to celebrate the birthdays... max was so kanchiong he lit up the candles and they were on the verge of melting when the birthday peeps came down ....

yup that's all this week and will go back to stgabs next week for speech day, to collect my cca award.

2008-04-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

the past week had been a hectic one for me!

last week after the easter break was just normal lessons, pe lesson was very hiong thank God i managed to pull through the sets and well it has been quite manageable so far.

last fri had youth and we studied on the beautitudes - the very first one on poor in spirit. it just constantly reminded me of how weak i am and how dependant i need to be on God, it's not us but it's God strength that pulls us through each and every day. and im just thankful to God for helping me throughout things in life...

sat had youth bbq at pasir ris park. well, it was quite fun and thanks to zq for also helping me in my econs , i grasp a better concept now and things aren't that complicated as i thought. well, it was a full of lameness and we played captain ball for about 1 hour. it was a great time of fellowship and maybe we could hv more of such outings to unwind and bond and also grow.

sun went to church in the morning... and the message was really clear... belieiving is seeing. and God's faithfulness nv fails. once u trust and commit everything to God, i believe God is good and He will guide me through and take care of everything.

ytd's sch started off with a new-new timetable. apparently the new timetable was uploaded on sun but there had been minor tweaks and it changed ytd and ytd's lessons ended at 1pm. which was good.

and talking abt school, i guess i shld stop grumbling about the teachers and school life any longer... coz it doesn't help much ... and jus need to pray for God to help me through to accept the way things are

today's pe was better... juz had a practice sesssion of the napha test and well napha's next wk. maths and history test were manageable.

yup-

2008-03-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

Power in the name (Paradise Community Church)

Isn’t there something beautiful when you call out that name

Isn’t there power amazing when in unity we say

Jesus Your love upon that hill means we are saved

Jesus there is power in Your name

Majesty Power and Love

HolinessPeace from above

With me in mind

Lord You took the blame

Jesus there is power in Your name

There is power in the Blood

Sin and shame

They’re gone in Jesus’ Name

There is power in the Blood

And that power lives in me

2008-03-17T21:32:00.002+08:00

ytd i felt so burnt (it has been better today!)

after sat's outing, my body has become so heated up all becoz im over-sun-tanned (if that's such a word)

my nose has become one of a reindeer, the back of my neck hurts, my hand hurts, my skin's peeling ...

one lesson learnt: muz applied sunbloc in future to sentosa. i tot it wasn't necessary because the weather was quite cooling and the sun wasn't blistering hot... and i really feel that i just came out from a sauna/hot spring...haha

anw my sandals also broke while i was running across the bridge in sentosa... both sandals broke, 3 out of 4 parts attaching to the sole of the sandals came out... i had to borrow my friend's slippers for the day haha

school today was generally fine. loads of hw coming up, pw coming up and mid years are just 2 months away. time is just moving so fast.

2008-03-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

the past two days were great!

ytd:
went to national library for project . well hadn't been to this national library before... and it was fun time discussing. i really thank God that my group members are efficient and we do things not last-minute...

then went for youth in the evening..
well, worship session was a constant reminder about soaking into the presence of God and i just read through cornerstone church's website (pastor's heart) about being in the presence of God :

Extracts:
"The pastor and his wife were expressly humble, which spoke loudly of the manifested Presence of God in the church... where we’ve experienced the river of God flowing at such a high level, the water level was so high that the only way to be in it was to swim in that river. There would have been no other way to flow in the services. You could not have walked or waded in but only to swim and to let the Spirit of God take you where He wants to lead you. It was an experience described in Ezekiel 47:3-5, where Ezekiel described the river that flowed from under the threshold of the temple… "

“the water came up to my ankles… the water came up to my knees… the water came up to my waist… and it was a river that I could not cross; for the water was too deep, water in which one must swim, a river that could not be crossed.” A river that Ezekiel describes as bringing healing and life, where everything will live wherever the river goes.The people had such a hunger for God. They wanted to know Him and to know Him. They wanted to walk in His pleasure knowing that they were created for His pleasure. They responded to the altar calls without hesitation, running up by the hundreds and thousands. Literally getting up and running. This is the expressed hunger of the people. They were not coaxed to run… they just ran, kicking up a cloud of sand from the ground."

And it just reminded me that we should yearn and long for more of God in each and every day of my life! things in life just gets amazing when u yearn more for God! It's just so wonderful...

then had carecell group session which was on the study of the beatitudes , which is a 'magnificent charter of life' as coined by my youth pastor... it's something that not only i got to remind myself but to also practically apply these in my life situations... God is there for you, God's favour is there for you when u abide in Him!

today:
went to sentosa for ig outing. even though onli 6 of us turn up, this outing was quite fun without much running around... it was rather relaxed.. we din play much... well, cherie came with the cake to celebrate deborah's bdae (and for me it was a belated one haha) ; then the two left while the rest of us - jeanne, shauqi, isaiah n me stayed on and went into the water and soak ourselves in haha... it was real cooling...

thanks to all who came for this outing and made it possible ! haha

at nite went with my family for dinner at jack's place to celebrate my belated birthday... the quantity was huge and food was great!

haha anw that's all !

2008-03-14T00:11:00.002+08:00

hey!

thanks to all those who gave me their birthday wishes ! haha greatly appreciated it lots! im now one year older! more and more challenging things and responsibilites ahead! haha

anw the past week has been holidays but it's no holidays for me

last sat started off with econs project and thank God for a great group to work with!

wasn't feeling quite well the past week due to allergy and i had a bit of flu la

monday went to school for bridging lessons , was really tired and did some class decoration to 'liven' up the class atmosphere... then went to far east square for lunch..

continued with our econs project by interviewing ppl and ask them abt their opinions. we had to videocam them and some were a bit shy... before this , we were afraid of rejection and we prayed before we started... managed to get like 6 -7 ppl which is good ! Praise God !

tues had bridging lessons again and afternoon attended debates session... i had to open my ears wide and be attentive as the debates by the j2s were real fast and even the review.... din quite get some of the debates... but it was rather interesting...went back home to prepare for my debate that was to be presented today...

wed practically spend the whole day at home doing my work and revising stufz...at night went to lau pa sat to eat dinner with my sr 1s07 friends... long time we havent met already. many jokes and convos abt school was shared and it was a great time of catching up and talking rubbish la... this group of friends are so lame...

walk to suntec and while the rest took mrt to cityhall from raffles place, shaun n i walk to admire the scenery at spore river, merlion park , and esplanade... reached there and later walked back... met 2 group of friends... really the world's small haha

today woke up and sam ask how i spend my birthday...well it wasn't really cool, it wasn't really interesting... did my work and went for debates... totally screwed it up i was reading from the script, the points were not that strong too...but first time and it was really a learning process

okies.... the holidays ending soon... tmr got project meeting and sat will be going sentosa with my ig mates !

that's all!

2008-03-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

the past week has been great so far!

my class 1to8 i thank God it's a fun class with a lot of diversity not only in character but also in race ... let me name ..
one is dutch-chinese
one is eurasian , there's alot of mixed blood
one is a vietnamese (he's a scholar anw)
one is half-Myammese
one is half-Japanese
one is half-Taiwanese...
and i... i also got something special but i aint revealing it here

well it's interesting. lessons are pretty much okay for me. had a bit difficulty doing maths questions becoz of my lack of knowledge for summation but in the end i manage to solve most of the questions by myself... when school reopens it's MI test... (not a test on millenia institute, it's mathematical induction)

then on wed went to toa payoh to get some deco stuff for the classroom, appparently have to decorate and put up the notice board... (as of fri, only the black background of the notice board has been done) .

then ytd lessons were only from 8 -10 for me with 10-12 break and then go home coz of a lvl results release. so it has been quite a good day for me ytd.. and the teachers that taught me so far are quite okish but they are a bit more demanding i can sae... especially my chem teacher... she's a good teacher but she teaches in an interesting n funny way (shan't elaboarate much...my class would noe)

and what's holidays next week? there's practically none... econs project which my group started today pluz extra bridging lessons pluz the typical homework. it's gonna be busy with more work n tests piling up when term 2 begins.

ytd youth was great....it was just a constant reminder that i am helpless and need God in everything... through changes, i learn to once again surrender and trust God no matter what... that God holds me close in His heart... even when things look shaky and uncertain.... it's all this that the need of dependance and trust in God comes... after youth i found myself doing a short video clip for good friday..

today's econs project meeting started off and im glad that my group can come out with ideas and the progress so far is good...the video clip that we gotta make now have some concrete ideas... i like our group's idea becoz of the uniqueness + it's interesting...thanks to stella...haha

anw gotta read up on history and im a bit confused over the different viewpoints of historians on the topic of cold war- they are very conflicting... you have to read many times to see who's right and who's wrong... and now i gotta read up on nationalism for southeast asia... history is just so interesting

enough of ranting here...i juz end my post.

2008-03-01T16:46:00.003+08:00

lessons has started the past week.

and apparently the workload is heating up ( well it's expected anw )
there's no re-teaching of previous topics and im glad i made the right choice of going for 1st 2 months to jc so that i won't be so lost during lesson time.
apparently due to lack of time, bridging sessions are conducted after school but they are somehow taught real briefly because of the lack of time. and going for bridging lessons were a recap of what i've forgotten in the first 2 months.

it's march already and two months have just flown by so fast! alot of things i gotta catch up in terms of academic...

also join debates club as my cca... even though im not really out-spoken , im glad this cca offers a platform to anyone , even one without any debating background. i hope to improve my public relations with other ppl as well as my confidence when presenting. i gotta admit i still have a little stage fright though. so i hope to learn from this cca.

met my new classmates on mon and apparently some are vocal and fun! it just reminded me of my previous class in sr. hopefully the class would be more fun and all kinds of barriers among us would be broken.

next week is the last week of term1. so fast and mid year exam is in 10 weeeks time and a level chinese orals at the end of june... work really starts now.

2008-02-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

cj orientation is so fun!

the past 4 days was the most fun and enjoyable orientation - lots of games to bond everyone and also help people like me to orientate ourselves into cj life!

played lots of games which were super-fun! i juz can't imagine how the councillors n facils manage to come up with so many games... haha

day1:(wed)
alighted at the bus stop and saw many of my gabrielite friends there... then waited for a few more to come and later walked into the school...
got into ig1 and later we had some ice-breakers... the group is big but in the end, i managed to remember all of my igmates names...
had to choose my subject combi choice ...praise God that i got into my 1st choice of h2 maths, econs, hist , h1 chem when i chk the combi ytd...

day2(thu);day3(fri)
started off with lots of games, more than the previous day .... alot of games that im too lazy to type it all here... it was definitely FUN! and now i noe lots of games that i played haha...
went to east coast park on fri and we played games like sliding and hitting our facils, dragging each member sitting on the tyre out of the water , wheelbarrow...

it's alot and alot even on day 4(sat) there were water games that all of us were super super wet.... i can't describe it in words... but i can sae that it's probably the best jc orientation in the whole of spore (pardon me if u feel it's not)... some of friends appeal back to cj coz they miss the cj life and din like their new jc...

anw,i thank God for having a great ig and great facils and we had great fun and bonding during the past 4 days! haha... i learnt to open up and be more friendly haha

went back home ytd and slept for 11 hours ... was super exhausted!

went to church today and learnt that as a body of Christ, we gotta love and care for one another and the carecell group formation works towards these objectives... i think for my youth ccg i believe it's gonna be great in no soon time to come!

tmr's i will meet a new group of friends again ( this is the 5th time this yr) ... and dragon-boating in the afternoon tmr...

so yup that sums up the past week!

2008-02-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

praise God that i got into my choice into cjc(arts)!

went to srjc for the last time ytd. when i alighted from the bus, i heard that some ppl have already received their posting via sms... so finding it weird coz it isn't 8am yet... so when i received i really thank God ... some of my friends din get thier choice....

after that went back to sec school.... wearing our sec sch uniform... teachers look us... ask we come back for what? we loiter around... teachers give us the stare haha.... then ask where we get posted to... talking abt why we came back, we wanted to see if can get o lvl cert but apparently not... maybe next mth...

then went back home and later go watch 'jumper' with my srjc class for the last class outing at grand cathay... din really like the show ... and later went to plaza sing for dinner... walk to hmv to see some cds ...then later bid each other farewell ... well, i really thank God for such a great class full of fun and laughter the past 7 weeks... though it was a short time... i guess we'll be meeting back in no soon time man...haha

went to cj today... the journey was relatively fast... met many of my sec school friends there ... orientation was okies... juz that i find the group too big; but anyway it was fun ... met new friends!

orientation will last til sat. i guess more fun is coming up soon

haha

2008-02-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

tmr will be the day that i will receive my postingresults

time flies by so fast that it will be the last time that my class in sr will be meeting tmr .

chalet with my class over the weekend was fun! i was glad that my class managed to bond up so well since the beginning of the year and i guess all of us are gonna miss each other alot when we leave for our new schools!

fri there was bbq but i came later aft church. so we played xbox and cards, and played all the way la....

sat morning was playing xbox again while others played mahjong; then went for lunch and later some (incl me) played pool while the rest went to cycle at the park. i seriously suck at pool and maybe nid more practices... its only my 2nd pool session :) haha

went for dinner and played some card games later.... i left on sat nite
this class that i am presently in is a class filled with lots of fun, bonding , interaction, laughing ,jokes , highs , and many many things that i personally dun see it in other classes (maybe have, but just that im unaware)

so thank God for such an enjoyable time so far.... serious work will start next wk and orientation for the rest of the week i guess in all jcs.... haha

nat:)

2008-02-14T22:05:00.003+08:00

今天我会使用华文来写在这博客。

这个星期过得非常快！农历新年四天后，初五就要回校了。
在这星期内，发生了很多事情- 这也是我最后的星期在实龙岗初级学院了。

星期二：我和机位学长到花园去包一些情人节的玫瑰。当我们到花园时，实践已经是旁晚五点了。我们花了大约一个钟头报了186花。（前天别人已包了140华，剩下的是400个。）这算是很快了！

今天早上，我们学长们分了一些情人节礼物给学生们。虽然今天是情人节，但我认为这天也可以称呼友谊日。我们送礼物的意义是来感谢与欣赏我们和朋友之间的友谊，没有特殊的意思。朋友们送的礼物不一定表示和对方约会，很多时候朋友送的是普通礼物，比喻巧克力，自己写下的信。

这是一个小段落。希望您不介意我的表达。希望能广泛我的内容。

nat:)

2008-02-08T15:51:00.000+08:00

chinese new year... and i guess as i get older there's nothing much i look forward to in this festive season.

tues nite went out with student council liasion committee for dinner at seoul garden.... quite ex but we had great fun together and gotta noe some ppl better .... then later saw fireworks at esplanade there... mini ones but it was a nice sight.

wed morn had cny celebrations in school... later went with council to old folks home for some performance.... and it was just a time for one to reflect to treasure ur loved ones... i mean these ppl in this home don't hv anyone to celebrate with during this season....

then at nite went to grandparents place for reunion dinner...

ytd was chu yi.... was rather relaxed la... no nid rush from one house to another... my family just take our own time.... but it was rather okay this year.... nth much expected ....

pae will end soon in about 1.5 weeks time and the workload will soon stack and pile up real high.... the workload is imminent. ....

anw wishing all a happy CNY! haha